[ i am what i am] past..present.. & future...=)

random...

2012-01-09T01:53:00.002+08:00

MC: These days, there are lots of criminal issues done by men and women are the victims.
What do you think Hyun Joong?

HJ: I think men should clear up their head first.

Me: LOL~~~ *golekguling*

p/s: he's just being himself regardless where and when is it. So HJ..hahaha

what does new year means?

2012-01-02T15:13:00.000+08:00

Believe it or not 2012 is here! Like in a blink of eyes and i still wondering what have i done throughout the entire year. So i'm already one year of graduating? Why does it feels like it happened last 3 months with all those memories with friends? Here i am again asking what does this New Year means? Other people might say it's a new period for you to change yourself or to improve. It's a year where you want to strive for everything. As for me, im still doing the same thing as i did exactly on 11.59 PM 31st December 2011 where i'm on the internet, checking the twitter, reading ~~some~~ gossips, watching ~~some~~ videos in youtube and maybe watching a k-drama. So, it still the same routine, and i'm back to the square one. As i writing this up, i am still wondering what does this New Year means to me? You may say i'm slacking off in everything i've done since all mentioned are the procrastination part of me who's lazy to change. Yes, as i fell those things are the things that closely relates to me right at this moment. I may be doing the official things like teaching or studying but the routine is there. Oh, you no need to agree with me as this is a personal judgment and opinion who do not reflect on other.

BUT, there are things that caught my interest that leads me to write this post. As you can see, the writing habit of mine is worsening tremendously without any valid reason or cure. Its affect me by the way, as i don't know where do i need to give all out of what i've feel instead of holding it inside and at the end it's leads to nothing. These are what i've seen so far over the new year resolution that people post on facebook or twitter since both sites offer a great source of all gossip in the world.

1) A riot made by university undergrads asking for freedom in academia field.

This is the hottest issue that viewed and received mix reaction from the people. Be it a lecturer, or students or the public, even graduates like me. I'm once undergrads student and I'm still one of them now since i've continue my study. This is NOT a political judgment, i repeat NOT a political judgment but it's based on a citizen of a country who's merdeka for over 55 years till now and 'undi anda adalah rahsia', so why bother telling which party that you are voted for. I also have my own mix reaction towards this as at first i thought that the boy who's sparked the risen of this issue is so brave. Who dare to actually do the same thing as he did before? It's the same situation if you recall a Palestine? Iraq? citizen who happen to throw a shoe toward George Bush just because of the hatred. Then, i've come across a blog who critics the boy's action as unmanned and it's a way of showing off that you're brave. Then again, my judgment changed. When i read the breaking news on how the students were beaten half-dead by the police on the night of the riot. I can feel the anger flew in me. I watched the video of incident and i thought why do they do that? It's like those have nothing to do? Police came and offered good deal for them to demolish the event, but they still stubborn to do it. At the end, most of them end up in the 'lokap' and few injured. That's the situation.

But then again, it get me to a very main concern on WHAT do they want in the first place. Have all the people who're showing their concern towards the issue look at what are these students asked in the first place thus, lead to the riot itself. As what i read and been emphasized by them, they want the university students have their own right in voicing out their opinions regardless of what issues. Those want their small rights to be heard and a small right to giving out their own thought and belief to the country. And what's so big deal about granting the human right of speaking for them. They also claimed that they do not represent any political parties and doing that in the name of justice. I believe in their fight as the objectives are clear. We're once a student. What does the role of Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar (MPP) in an educational institution if they're yet failed to carry out the students' voice and forever hide behind university’s administration. The issue is simple, but with the involvement of the 'invisible' hands, it looks worse than it is. I've come across my own lecturer facebook’s status, commented upon this issue. I must say it's disappointed to have that shallow mind of him saying these people are shallow minded. He sort of felt ashamed as there are students from our university involved in that riot by citing a blog link of what a random blogger has said towards the university. Why he's so intimidated by the view of the blogger? Why did he think the reputation of the university is at stake just because of the unreliable sources and opinion pointed out regarding the issue from the unknown blogger? Instead, he's being orthodox saying that the real job of a student is studying. Has he ever wondered the real responsibility of a human being? Being a student is just ONE of the roles that have been put on our shoulders. That's the turning point of my thinking. Do public actually understand the real objective of the situation?

Weeks before, i had a talk with besties regarding what happen. It's just unintentional talk that lead to this topic and we've come to a point that it's the world where youngster like us know what is right and wrong. Who's the sifu? Of course the internet and media. You cannot control people's perceptions same goes people's opinion as we have our own belief as long as you have a solid reason on what you are rooting for. You can compare and contrast which one is black and white. You can already look for the answers and and Mr.Google does help a lots. You may want to block the online stream media like youtube and twitter, but it would not be happen as what you did in blocking the web-sharing site before. So, this is the medium of everything. I thought only old people who leaves far away from the city, who hardly get any other channel of news other than rtm would have this lousy thought of mind, but it’s sadden me when people who has full excess to online sources also acts blindly as though you’re too noob in exploring the net. I also have friends who’s taking an excuse action of not caring or accurately ‘ambil cakna’ of what happen around them commented they’re too fed-up on the issues occurred. Wow, just like that? Then when people want to jump from a bridge, then you also want to jump thinking it’s actually a bungee jumping? For whatever reason you live, you need to have a strong side of opinion. Whatever opinions you have make sure it is reliable to support your verdict and not solely base on what you see and heard. Don’t be lazy to at least search deeper and read more on what’s been presented other than swallow it as what it is presented to you.

To all noobs out there, don’t be ashamed to admit yourself, (tho you're proud in reading books from Dummies series) but be ashamed of you, who do not learn anything for what happen around you. There’s a reason why a phrase like “ History repeats itself” do exist after all.

p/s: i'm hesitated in clicking the 'publish' button for this post, but after watching the videos above, "Why Not!"

fix me...

2011-11-27T21:39:00.000+08:00

"otak sedang merasionalkan emosi...."

p/s: the song explained all. hormone's messing up! i hate it!

Le Gra, Westlife.

2011-10-26T00:45:00.000+08:00

*SMS received*

Kak Jan: Did you know Westlife is spliting?? It's all over the news and twitter!

Me: Huh?? Where's the news? (blurrrr) [replied.]

Kak Jan : Twitter, si Liza tweet semalam. [ in reply]

Me: *speechless + mate buntang xleh tido dah*

That's the news that i've received after one week of meeting them live and face to face in Malaysia.

This thing has been speculated long ago and now it's been confirm like really confirm. I haven't write my fan account during the Malaysia visit and yet this coming out them. Truthfully, i'm speechless as in not that-speechless-wanna-cry one but more to speechless; 'this fast? I've just saw you last week and you have this decision all along during the Asia Tour?'

[Taken from their official Facebook.]

Splitting in boyband is not a new thing to be cried for as it happens. Like Kak Jan said, boyband do expired, like what happen to Blue, Take That, or Boyzone. People already talked about it since Bryan left the group in 2003, but they still strong till now. After reviewing the official statement from them, it can be concluded that this is the right time for them to end it themselves as a matter of giving spaces for a new embark-able individual journey for everyone. I believe Shane wants to do business, Nicky might want to venture as an entertainer as he did before as a DJ or MC, Kian might wants to focus on his new family with the born of 'Twinkle" in anytime, while Mark, i have no prediction for Mark (LOL). The reason is too strong as it's for everybody sake not because of they arguing or somebody tried to leave the band again.

It's been 12 years since they have been together, and Shane said they have come this far just because they share the same teenage dreams long time ago and together they want to achive that dream. Westlife is not only a boyband, but it's a growing family with 5 people at first, come down to 4 and now they have expend with the juniors family coming in one after one. It's hard to maintain of course with the growing up children who needed the attention, i think it's a wise decision made by them. It's surprise to see how calm i am dealing with this matter. Not to say i'm not sad, but to what extend should i show or express my sadness over this matter. Better be happy and thinking the positive outcomes from all this matter. If fan feel the lost, then they themselves would be even worst.

I can't explain every inch of what contribution Westlife has turn me so far as it hard to describe through words and i'm not good at it. All i can say half of what i am today is actually what i learn with them, it can be said i grow older with them as from a child who will memorize every lyrics of the songs, bought every albums that they released and how to integrate them in everyday life routine. The name Sha Filan would not exist if there's no Shane Filan, as people always wondering what is it all about. There will be no girl with good English in the primary years, (i repeat primary years not now ) who tried to translate every words that came out from their mouths, or even memorize their countless dialogs in the DVDs. It's all affect me after all.

I'm not regret for what i've sacrificed and done as a fan. Even better after i finally met them especially Shane Filan in Malaysia earlier this October. It's like a dream come true with unimaginable encounters with them all along while they're here. I come to notice that Shane and Nicky are very friendly, Kian can be a little moody and Mark can be both. Of course i will post up my fan account for that as it's a lots of things to be shared and i also have promised to my concert partner, Dhiya to put it up.

Well Westlife, though it's the end of WESTLIFE, but it's already live it up in me. I already used to the wordings, the names, the songs, and even the hazel eyes that Shane has.LOL. Not to mention, the last gift that he left me before he flew off from Malaysia. i would always believe that once you're a fan, you would always be one no matter how many others come and go. If one day you're going to make a comeback just because you're already broke, don't worry i will still support all of you like before. hahaha.

Till then,

Le Gra, Go Deo,
Sha Filan xxx

Life of a fangirl...

2011-10-25T17:08:00.000+08:00

p/s : Not saying it is happening to me, just to say it's happen. ^^

C.o.n.t.a.g.i.o.n

2011-09-17T20:02:00.000+08:00

Blogging isn’t writing. It’s graffiti with punctuation

Dr. Ian Sussman:

Contagion Quote

p/s: Nope! i havent watch the movie yet...lalalala...

sweepin' the blocks

2011-09-17T19:16:00.001+08:00

Notice the so-called-long-meaningless post down there? Yes, that's the effort in welcoming a new mood to the word w.r.i.t.i.n.g. It's like a taboo words for now, as it's been a long time i don't write anything, be it an essay the hardest or even a blogpost the easiest. And i realized, writing is very important not only to express yourself but more towards my current life right now that requires me to write up about everything. Well maybe it's not engage in a full mode but sooner or later it will as my study already starts today [grapssss...].

So, as for the start in removing all the-so-called w.r.i.t.e.r.'.s.b.l.o.c.k, lets starts with something that i like and wants to talk. It's easy and you will get a very colourful and video-lize post [ekeke..bragged] Though it's annoying to have that kind of post and somehow i'm positive i will get a negative feedback upon it, why don't you just enjoy what's been presented as i am.

The semester has ended by the way. i mean the teaching period. Now, the students are busy preparing for their finals and English will be their first ~~'killer'~~ subject that they will face tomorrow. If you read this, then Best of Luck to you guys! Tho, i don't think they will...ekekeke. Up to the last class, the only comment that i got from them are still the same responses from the first class, "i'm worried about my English". "Am i going to fail?" " Are you going to help us?" "How am i going to write an essay?" The evil me would say, now we're in the last class and you asked me these kind of crap? It's not their fault actually. As for me, learning English is like a life-time learning. There are always something new that you can learn everyday if you allow yourself to be exposed to lots of English. It's just you really need passion in order to do it. Lets say you want to improve the language by reading English newspaper everyday, then how long will it last? As for me, i honestly said i rarely read English newspapers due to maybe i am too busy [busy la sangat!] or i find it very boring. That's why i said, try to find something that you are enjoyed with like watching tv or movie but make sure it's in English subtitle. Then you may be able to grab something out of the dialogue. For example, one day i heard Azeem shouted from the toilet calling for my father, "Abah, is that you?" in English! I mean the 6-years-old Azeem! I don't know if he got it from watching 'PowerPuff Girls' or 'Chowder'. That's is the development i'm talking about. It's a simple phrase, but how many of you can say exactly the same phrase when you're 6 years old, hands up, i'm not either. If you used to the language, it will naturally comes to you in any form, be it in writing and speaking. The exposure itself is very important. Chitravelu once said in her book, babies learn to speak by listen to what's been said to them. Like you always said to a baby, 'papa' 'mama', of course the words would registered in their brain and they're able to pronounce it in the first place.

Okey, now drop the theory in there as it become serious suddenly...hehe..i'm happy that i'm been able to write this long, up to this level but still im learning and improving myself for better and worst. Of course there's a jealousy in me when i read others blogs as they have so many things to talk about and their instructions are perfectly well explained in wordings which i'm lack to. Hey, a person can change if she wants. All she needs to do is removed all the blockage and stop procrastinating then you will see a brand new you. You may be look so ordinary on the outside, without you realize your own potential as yourself.

Note to self: i'm happy invigilating exams! i'm happy invigilating exams! sigh...~~

who is he?

2011-09-17T18:28:00.000+08:00

Who is he?

Sexy back..ohh -JT-

If anybody who’s with me maybe know who is he and as for others maybe they’re just wonder why im too stick to him. And for people outside the circle also maybe recognize him as the man with the golden hair and cold blooded characters as he portrayed in his previous dramas. Or how people asked me why on earth you like him, the one who’s so ‘keras’ when acting. However, it ain’t enough to evaluate a person through a series that he stared in. But, I respect others opinions as it’s theirs plus I have no blood-related or what so ever to the person but only the relationship of a fan with the idol.

Even my parents now know how to pronounce his Korean name without stuttered, of course in a way to tease me or to trap me with the ‘gotcha’ tone if I’m so secretive about something. Have you wonder who he actually is other than just by seeing him on your flat screen been somebody else’s character or just by know his name? What makes me no difference with other fans who value him so much as he is now?

Way before being an actor, he is a singer and a leader in a boy band called SS501 and up until now he still is a singer. They are an established idol groups since debut in the year for 2005 and up until now. As most people know him from his drama Boys Over Flower (BOF) (yes, he’s the one with the golden hair) and then moved to Mischievous Kiss (MK) (and yes, he’s the one with the cold-blooded attitude), I knew him during BOF period. During the BOF time, I don’t fancy him as the ‘Ji Hoo sunbae’ but my attention of course focused on the lead that time, Lee Min Ho.

After watched BOF, one of my friends actually passed me a bunch collection of ‘We Got Married’ show. Generally, it’s a TV reality show where an idol could be a singer or an actor/actress been paired up to be a husband and wife for a period of time. During that time, they need to act as a married couple who live together during the show but still continue career as usual. So he’s participated in this show and had been paired up with a female singer, Hwang Bo. Then, I know who actually this Kim Hyun Joong is. He is not who he is in those characters.

[most of the clips in here are from WGM years, so maybe you can have a glimpse how the show is.]

Hyun Joong: humans can't defeat the machines.
Hwang Bo: but humans CREATED the machines.
Hyun Joong: humans created them so that they'd do what humans can't.
Hwang Bo: but still, machines were created by humans.
Hyun Joong: but humans used to be monkeys.

In the recent interview, one of the SS501 members, Kyu Jong also mentioned the same thing, on how different he was Ji Hoo sunbae in the drama, like it’s really opposite towards himself.. I posted the clips along for the view.

[the comment is around 2:00]

His character, his true-self and his 4-dimensional attitude that will crack you up with laughter and that are actually things that hook me up with him. If I were to judge him based on his acting, of course there’re lots more impressive yet superb Korean actors that he might not be able to catch-up to. If I were able to review him as a good singer, then he’s also not up to that notch. He’s just modest and moderate in its on way. And if people ask me to promote him to the world, I would say he’s not in that world level yet and maybe not ready to face the world as he’s still in the learning phase.

Interviewer: "Do you like the nickname that you're 'Fourth Dimensional'?
KHJ: "I like it now but initially, I thought they meant that I'm like a 'dol-I' (retard/crazy person) so I didn't feel good. I'm interpreting it now as something like 'having unique charms.' (laughs) In that way, I think everyone has some tendencies to be 4th dimensional."

[His 4D responses in an interview regarding his new album]

By knowing his character so far is the key why people love and stick to him this far. So that it, when people asked me why do I like him? Why your mobile wallpaper’s is his? and there’s other people who are more cool and popular, why him? All I can do is smile and smile, because I don’t have the answers either unless you experience the same way as I did since 2009. That was the starting point to everything happen now. Moreover, being a 3-years-old fan also cannot guarantee that you know everything but him and like I said before, I’m not his half-blood sibling to be able to know every single detail.

Of course there’s up and down, head over hills, and the good and bad things happen in his life that also contributes to who he is today. This one long post is not enough to cover the long 3-years of knowing him as Kim Hyun Joong, then maybe this is the start to introduce what’s is more in a person named Kim Hyun Joong itself. Who knows by reading this post, it will turn someone to become Henecia at heart..ekeke.

[Malaysia, Oct 2011]

I who have already turned into an adult,
I go against the opposite because I have a reason.
Not because I want to show how cool that is or how tough I am,
but because I want to prove the truth to my alleged thoughts.
So long as I have confidence and assurance in myself
No matter what others may say or do
It will not suffice if I don’t stick to my own initial thoughts.
Even if that matter may end up wrong,
as long as it’s something I have decided about,
I will prove it firmly and bring it till the end.
-Kim Hyun Joong-

p/s: YES! I know this is long and meaningless post, so?

what do you wanna be?

2011-08-15T23:13:00.003+08:00

In my 23 years of life, i still have no idea at all where my life is heading to as everything that i wanna do is less working and i'm tired in hoping and planning. i dont have any life planning right now leave alone in 2 or 3 years or even next year. life has become a robot where you just go with the flow, go to work, back from work and so on. plus, with additional one more burden soon, let see which part of my ship is going to sink first. could it be in educating, working, studying or leisuring life. It's already burden me, really. Feel like suffocate in your own world where you don't know where the escape route is. and sometime fulfilling others expectation is tiresome. Just a rant.

p/s: im hopeless.

They're coming....!!

2011-07-27T02:34:00.004+08:00

After 11 years of waiting, WESTLIFE's coming to Malaysia!!! [wooot....wooottt]

I was actually screamed a bit when i saw Mark tweeted the details of the Asia tour thru his twitter and the news become a hot topic for a while as everybody actually anticipating for it.

They're coming here maybe for the the new album, 'Gravity' promotion where i havent even download the songs, let alone in buying the cd. Actually, i missed 3 of their records in my collection, and the songs also feels alienated to me. But, hey...hey... Mr.Shane voice is still the best yo.! ekeke... and to add up the hot & spicy to this juicy news, Sony Music Malaysia also posted the early details about it in their FB .

Like i said it's been 11 years for me and others. It's like from childhood memories and suddenly it's about to come true. Most of my friends even said is Westlife still exist after all this while? Well IT IS of course! Up till now, i really think i can gather a 'rombongan mak kiah' to tag along for this. hahaha...

p/s: waiting for the seating layout...^^ and hoping my money tree grows very well on October.^^

changing...

2011-07-27T01:52:00.002+08:00

I'm here!!!!
Looks like the writing mode kicks off when i have caffeine for a day. I did slurp for double shot for tonight as a matter of staying up late and finishing what's supposed to be finished.

It's been almost 1 month im in the new work place. Everything's fine as for now and i feel so much worried as this is the big institution where everything is counted and everyone wants to be part of it. Not to doubt about the previous place, but i actually can compare it now. Not going to brag about the system or stuff but prefer more on the teaching and the students.

I've been given to teach 2 subjects that involve students from semester 1 and 3. For semester 1, it will focus more on grammar while semester 3 is all about writing. Both skills that i'm lacking off in my own-self. I must say that this time i really do the teaching part as i have time to study and make sure that the students understand what they have been presented with. It reminds me back at the old place where I've got to teach 5 subjects all together in one semester, let alone their level and semesters. It's all mess-up. It come to the sense that is it for quality or quantity. I can say that my previous teaching has no quality at all, as you've been burden with lots of unrelated things plus the killing teaching loads which hardly makes me focus into the classroom preparation. Now i felt that i should have make the classroom activity and teaching works on them.

Education is not about making money and such. It's about how you make the students learn something in your class and how they response towards your teaching. It's hard as being an educator it involves to educate and shaping them in becoming a human being. So do not label the teacher for whatever they are because sometime it's stressful in order to make a normal human understand what you are talking about. AND teaching do not involve any medium. It can revolve in any places in the world as along as your knowledge is shared.

Though this new place is established and well-known, the English level is just the same as the students still struggle with that 2nd language. I have encounter the weak students in class where they can't even pronounce the simple words or their slang is the barrier to the speaking. So it's just the same be in here or there, people struggle with it, as i hope i would have done better there.

what am i talking about?? I dont know either...lalalala....

p/s: yes...my english is bad too as im also learning and im not the native speakers..you have problems with that?

Lie To Me...

2011-06-13T02:33:00.006+08:00

I'm sure i should not be posting this up and it's like so suddenly out of nowhere the urge to write come and this time i self-surrender to what i feel. I'm actually in the middle of translating the Episode 4 of 'OneDay' as it needs to be submitted by (tonight?tomorrow?) haha i dont know already, as long as my second boss will see this trans in her email by tomorrow morning and it means no sleep for me as it's just 2/5 of it done?. Yes, i love and miss the feeling of writing without having any restriction to what you're going to put on your post.

In keeping up with my sleepy head, i'm just doing the translating while watching new drama, crazy ait? it's really makes my work slower on the left side while the eyes are glued to the right side even more, but it couldn't be helped. It's just a sadpy sloopy love story as always, where he dumped her then comes new girl and then she's coming back and he wants her back and leave the other 'she' clueless on what actually happen. (cliche already) It just reminds me back on Kim Samsoon, as in here we have Yoon Eun Hye, way better compare to Samsoon but the storyline is quite the same. Yes, i did watched it because of YEH all the way but half way of the episodes, i googled for Kang Ji Hwan. Like i said, it's juat a simple, cliche ,predictable love story but i just love it. It's still getting in sense on how typical waman fall

for a man but the man still in the memories of the other woman. Sigh~~~ life's hard. My fave quote would be, it's the matter on living and starting new life or living with your hunted past memories that will hurt you soon as if the wound would heal.

[leftrightleftright @_@]

Getting until this paragraph, i dont know what i'm rambling about, it's just i need to say what you have read. If you dont understand, then don't be. It's not for information or something. If you do understand, thank you for reading. Maybe i do miss this blog really much. Though it's nothing, but at least it has something that others done, it's a my life journey as well. So better to keep it live and continue writing or just let it dead and rarely open it, it's all my choice. And it's clearly that making a choice is not an easy things do and it's getting complicated when it's involve many parties. Till then, that's all i wanna say.

p/s: i think my hormone ain't stable yet. =.='

: do i sort of missed the [click, cling and pang?] <-------help me 'Azril', what's urs?

hello??

2011-05-18T01:23:00.002+08:00

coming back soon....? (>.<')

procrastinating...

2011-03-26T18:44:00.003+08:00

Hola....it's me!!! (sweeping all the dusk here...)
i hate of writing, 'it's been a while' and IT IS!! i'm always a lazy bum, and when i can't make my thought to get out from my brain thru my skull and on this blog, then i'm a failure. See how the topic of today's posting? yes! i'm procrastinating over other important things that should be done and finished maybe last week? Now i understand the underlying meaning of this word when my friend, Tasha keep using it before.

Pro-cras-ti-nation

by means: is putting off or avoiding doing something that must be done.

And right now, i'm suppose to revise the notes for the subjects that i'm going to teach next semester but i havent done it yet and i'm avoiding it by updating this blog and going to give a full rant about it. I bought home all the books that related to the subjects, go through the syllabus, marked which page i should going thru again and still i'm stuck in shortening the info into a neat notes. Can i just read it and not preparing any notes for the students? hahaha...my new way of teaching is i love torturing them in writing it out instead of me giving the photocopied ones.

Speaking of next semester, it's a short sem but i've got 4 subjects to cover it all and i can feel how a dead meat i am in order to prepare all the subjects. C'mon guys, if possible they want to squeeze all the English subjects in this semester and my total of teaching load would be 26 hours/week. it's PACKED! no more internet, no more running man and no more twitter i believe. but..but..but... it's all a timetable and on a paper, who know what might actually happen during the course...ekekeke...not going to spoil it here.

I've been thinking lately how i'm still here, in the place where i used to think that i will leave it in a short period of time but now, i'm still continuing till the 2nd semester. Even my friend already quit and already gone back to her hometown for better a future. I never brag about it before, as i don't what should i say. Though, everybody will advice me to stay there and gain something from the experince and i believe i am doing it now. i don't know how serious, or hopeless or drained this upcoming 6 weeks will be, but we shall wait and see the outcomes.

Procrastination, running circles in my head.
While you sit there contemplating,
You wound up left for dead (left for dead)
Life is what happens while you're busy making your excuses.
Another day, another casualty.
And that won't happen to me.....

p/s: how i love being able to write in here.....T_T

life is like a drama, but it's not perfect as it is.

2011-02-01T02:11:00.003+08:00

hoolaaaa!
it's been a while...and i think i keep saying those words in every posting of mine lately. Not that i'm not aware of it, it's just...YES..it's really been a while..i miss writing here, but the time constrains really bugs me now days.. i don't know what actually I'm doing that makes myself so busy and stuff. and like before, works will never be finished.

Sometimes in order to escape the reality, you just need to create your own fantasy where you;ll be really comfortable in it. Ignore anybody who don't understand yours, as long as you feel fine and happy in what your doing. the pass weeks, tho I'm busy, but i've been spoil with dramas. two perfect dramas that i think or most of us would have a thought to be one of these characters in it. how the heroin got to meet the gorgeous man, even though how ugly or clumsy or even boyish she is, there's still a handsome tall man will chase after her and will do anything to get her attention. That's the typical drama that you'll be seeing everyday. Taking about real life, we do have our own drama in our own script. it's just that you don't know how the story of your life will lead you further. seeing the character cried, you also cried along with them, as if you really understand how it feels to be what they feel that time. When it comes to the hero, everything seems perfect. He's the man of your dream. The great imagination and the perfect human being in the world. But, the sadden thing is the role is just a creation made by the writer.

Life hasn't been this perfect, there must be some way that you will also get hurt the most. A time when you feel really down that you don't have any energy to face the day, or even a time when you really want to deeply fall in love like any other people but you just can't. Just because you're in a reality world when anything can't be predicted. Sometimes you always feels to be in other people shoes like adoring how perfect their life could be, but at the end you just have to be grateful for who you are because your living on this earth must have a great reason that sooner or later you will know the meaning underlying the life that's been given by Him. Poorly, we are just who we are. and they are also who they are. This is the life...this is the reality that we must face everyday...^^

p/s : too many perfect storylines struck in the head sometimes can make me drown by it...T_T

webby speedy web....

2011-01-07T00:30:00.004+08:00

the last ranted about me finding a job was on 5th October 2010...and today is actually 7th January 2011 and im employed! hahaha...so my posting thru this blog would be only ONE post for each month back?? so pathetic....! How to cure this pathetic-ness? [ade ke words tu? haha]

Sorting back of the past is good! and you actually can laugh about it. how funny, mad, crazy and upside down ur life is...and i'm thankful THIS not-so-'alive' blog did stored something that i think i wouldn't even remember if i don't wrote it in here.

Yesterday, i had lots of things in mind. Just because i read the newspaper..haha how busy life can be even u can't read at all...huhuh.. and at this moment i realise working's suck!! WHEN...you got tons of work to do and even has to come on weekends, but the pay is SMALL! When i said LOTS...it's really is!! T_T hardly catching up with one thing, you already got another things to settle... =( Just leave the work thingy here...cause the load would never finish.

Back to lots of thought in mind...., yes...i still have it ..unorganised and need to write down on paper first as always..hahaha looks soo serious isn't it? but, it;s actually works. i can't write about something without drafting it first on papers, lets just said the paper and i have the connection...not forgetting the pen. haha then how you're going to be a journalist or editor?? <------itu belakang kire!

*trying to clean the webby speedy web* haha

So guy, this girl has nothing to put up here. this is also a random one since i posted the last photo here, and the i realise about the lack of updating. Though, i'm sure there's not many people will stop by here...but still it's something good to share..ahaha...ape-apela...will moved this lazzy butt to work more and be more hardworking!! erk??!

p/s i'm turning to one year older.....O_Y

alien???

2011-01-07T00:16:00.003+08:00

this pic is toooooooooo big in resolution that you could only see half? of it...haha...

p/s was trying on how to hotlink actually..hahaha...

about being lucky..

2010-12-14T00:44:00.005+08:00

It took me a while to write about this as i dont know where to start but wants to share about it. It's something that's rarely happen but do occur in one's life and i just got mine last week. I've never been so lucky in my life, be it my exam results, competitions or even lucky draw, but about what happen last week do make me realise that if fate and miracle takes control or get involve in anything, it'll be awesome. trying to be part of a lucky draw contest wasn't even my attention although the prize is priceless. i already know the consequences about being in the luck and lucky event, where whether you are actually lucky enough or the lady lucky is on your shoulders, then you can win the prizes. Even sometime happen to my friends who actually don't paid much hope on anything and suddenly they won the prize..so envy. So my journey with this lucky charm just started when i bought the TheFaceShop products, just because my MAN [you know who] actually endorse this label for a new contract. Before this, i even haven't laid my eyes on the TheFaceShop and wondered why there's still Bae Yong Joon as their spokesperson. But, it's all changed when Kim Hyun Joong takes place and the rest is history.~~

So, to cut thing short, KHJ is going to do an Asia Tour for the TheFaceShop outlets started in Korea of course, then Singapore and surprisingly Malaysia was included. It's like half of the dream come true already. After the announcement have been made, the info started to fill in and at that time the Malaysia event was actually not confirmed yet but not Singapore. I was thinking of taking the big steps in my life by flying to the other shore until i got a news...i REPEAT it's a NEWS not rumor said that he's confirm coming to Malaysia. Ommoooo! don't know how to describe as i'm myself also wondering is it really true or not? Is this the time where i covered back my frustration over the last year chasing them (SS501) when they landed here for a quick fanmeeting? Tried to gather all my sense which i would think impossible to do as it's all tremble and flying aways as in my mind i would only think "i'm going to KL no matter what!". =)

For the Malaysia event, you actually need to buy the products worth than rm50, so that you'll get the chance to be entitled in the lucky draw. Just a confirmation in participating and not confirming that you'll going to see him face to face and got the autograph. That's bad! really bad! as i'm never ever been any luckier in anything. At that time, i guess the Singapore event is much more secured to attend since they actually selling the fanmeeting tickets by buying the products, so it's actually a confirmation that you're actually will be able to get in no matter what! As long as you're in the earliest people who manage to grab the chance, then the place is yours. After deep of consideration, i'm staying with Malaysia. Not knowing what will happen, i just planned up everything, applying for leave, air ticket also, and sort of one or two stuff. But the most painful part was in getting a good camera to borrow as everybody had their own excuses that weekend. Not going to let the chance slipped by not having a good camera to shot him haha...called me crazy but it's the man that you're actually always looking through the posted photos in the webs and videos in the YouTube. And now, he will be breathing the same air as you, who would have want to miss that chance?

The day of TheFaceShop started to call people for the notification of their winning, i really don't put high hopes as i only spent rm50 compare to others who spent nearly thousand and just solely hope everything will based on the luck. So no preparation on winning other than a stalking plan trip to KL. That's is..until late in the evening a received a call, an unknown number to be precise. And the caller said, "Hi there, i'm from TheFaceShop....Congratulation! You actually......" and i can't heard any words on what he's saying anymore! and i won the Lucky draw!! like that freaking lucky draw! O.M.G! i just started to laugh as i GOT the chance to meet KIM HYUN JOONG!! and the stalking plan turn to be the triple stalking with that chance! hahaha

being able to feel the lucky charm is hard to describe. I mean it's all mix-up and also pretty mess-up too. You feel like you've been blessed or something and somehow ever wonder why you're so lucky in this kind of thing which makes me worried and scared as is it going to be the joy that "HE" wants me to feel before giving in the hard times in future. Not over think about it, i just feel what it should be felt that time. It was a wonderful awesome journey that you'll never forget. You also just gotta learn something new from everything that happen.

Chasing over idol or even fantasied about them may be lame or wasting our time which sometimes people around me won't get it. But beyond the craziness and the chasing there's actually something great happen underlaying the actions and only the people who involved will able to feel it. I ain't complaining for what happen as i valued it as pro and the cons in life. Sometimes being a mature person not only been measured through your action but somehow through the experiences and the journey of becoming one.

p/s: YES! i'm not regret of what i'm doing... =)

: and the series of the stalking will continue...ngeh...ngeh....ngeh.....

He was HERE!!!!!

2010-12-08T00:34:00.002+08:00

and I am LUCKY!!!......finally this man hit this shore and bring his million watt smile together!!!!

p/s : more will come....ngeh..ngeh..ngeh.... <-----bajet mystery! O_O

this is the story of a girl....

2010-11-15T00:52:00.004+08:00

who cried a river and drowned the whole world....[ by Nine Days]
her life will entirely change by tomorrow and she missed the yesterday of her already...T_T
who believes that people who is overly sensitive and think she's good or great should just be drown in the sea.... [she's evil! but she's sick n tired for being misunderstood all the time]
who have many thoughts and stories to share but still dont have the 'feel' to write about it up until this rant.
who still in dilemma thinking about how she's going to make an extreme + costly moves for the first time in her life.. [would she be allowed to do soo?? ]
who thinks some people who become close to other people just because of the status/power/influence that they had, and the some people should be buried alive! [shame on u! kipas bontot org je tau!]
who suddenly obsesses with this guy out of nowhere, where she should just be loyal to one ONLY! [ekekekeke....bajet!]
who thinks she should stop now, because she dont know what will wait for her tomorrow, monster? otomen? or even another surat saman ekor..
so, she better go to sleep like a good boy above ^_^......

p/s: a random thoughts of 'she/her'.......O_O , as idk if this is true or imaginary? haha

this is LOVE...

2010-10-27T23:38:00.002+08:00

guess what i accidently found!!

my background music with vocal...!

hehehe..

was browsing the YT as always, then a friend tweet about something else but this music as the background and with VOCAL!

all this while i though it's only the music along plays by Yiruma...hehe

so let's listen together...

[this one is him himself sings it on Yoo Hee Yeol's Sketchbook show]

[this one is him playing the piano while the vocal sing by Ravin]

p/s : i wish i can play like him...but that's only my hangat-hangat taik ayam... O_O

i realise...

2010-10-20T00:34:00.005+08:00

i just realise that,

i really do take care of people, but in the same time unconsciously hurting them inside...huhu

i do be very attentive to them with my action, but then i will hurt them too with my acts or even words....

i do care for them without verbally saying it loud, but at the end i failed to make it last long,

i do give good impression to people, but at the end me myself who ruins it...[crash n burn]..

i always be the person who actually to be blame, if the friendship ruins...hmm am i too provoking sometimes?

whatever it is, i just wanna say this out loud, i do care for you people...all of you...sometime it's just me who's really bad in expressing myself, or maybe too good in acting so that people wont know who am i actually...hahaha...

p/s: oh..maybe this is the way i'm actually expressing myself...hahaha

너 같은 사람 또 없어 주위를 둘러봐도 그저 그렇던 걸

rant!

2010-10-05T21:35:00.003+08:00

If a head-hunter is someone who’s actually looking for an employee, i would say searching for employers is even harder. Since all my life this time involve being a jobless person, more or less my facebook status, my twitter’s tweets and now my blog entries deals with a jobless people’s rant. I ain’t complaining but i’m sick of it. Now i start to fight with myself on what happen. Should i go for something out of my league, or wait for an opportunity that offers me to be well in my own field? The field that i devoted myself for 4 years in study.

Truth said, i’ve no confidence in following that straight path. I have no confidence in teaching people with my absurd English and have no confidence in dealing the people who actually seeking for the knowledge that me myself think i don’t have anything to offer. Oh! Please understand!

I’m just looking for opportunity to be extra ordinary, and now i’m thinking is it a failure to actually enrolled in course that offer no skills in it? I mean, an engineer student who lack of English skills has something else to offer to the job-world, that is his/her engine skills. English is just a spice that will make the market will go for you and sign you up with them. Then what about, an English student, who’s trying to apply for a job, she has nothing to offer other than an English qualification degree, with no other skills. I have friends in the teaching field also, the reason they’ve been accepted is because they sell their English well. Meaning that, they can acquire the language well compare to mine. [down!!]

OK, i’m mumbling about the language again. Sometime i think, can Bahasa Melayu takes place in everything? Hahaha...of course it’s impossible...!

Hahahaha..ignore my rants. I really felt to vomit it all here as in releasing of what i feel now. It’s not that i don’t like to be educator, but this person is too greedy in looking for something more in her life. Being different from anyone else which she also don’t know how, what, when and where to start it off.

p/s : bla..bla..bla....

crash and burn!

2010-10-05T21:20:00.003+08:00

It’s all started 2 weeks ago when i received a phone call late in the evening,

When the caller introduced herself, i’m stiff and numb a while before i could decipher of what actually she’s saying.

I was so excited to get the call and after a brief interview through the phone, she asked me to sit for an aptitude test after Hari Raya.

I told my parents about it , and they objected it in the first place since the job descriptions has nothing to do with my degree qualification. But then i insisted in trying the test for gaining some experience.

To cut thing short, i sit for the test. It was an IQ test with compilation of Math and some problem solving questions. Along with me are 4 other candidates who i believe seeking a job position as mine. Finish with the test, i felt, “Ok..this is it, i’m not going to pass it.’ since i left so many blanks. Next few days, a woman called again said that i passed the test and wonder if i can attend the 1st interview for the position. I was like ‘what?? I did???’ but of course it’s all in mine..and i couldn’t believe it also to what had happen. Once again, i packed my bags, headed to KL once again for a promising future as i believe of course.

I’ve been interviewed by a manager i guess. He’s so kind. Asking questions like you already guess in the beginning, and i stuttered a bit when he mentioned how much do i expected for the salary. Still, after the interview, i do hope for something, but then it’s too good to be true to happen in mind. The atmosphere was very promising and he said i better prepared for 2^nd interview after this also. So i was like, Ok another interview to go. It was Monday as I could remember.

On Tuesday, once again a voice of a woman called and asked me for the 2^nd interview. I couldn’t believe it! Am i that lucky? Or is it something with me that you need to confirm more? When I’ve been escorted to a room, i’m shock that the interviewer is a foreigner. She also looks nice and i’m shiver. I know her expectation would be higher. Everything went well although i think i screwed with my speaking a bit. What do you expect when having communication with a native speaker, of course she expects you to be well communicate with her.

On Monday, i got a replied e-mail saying, “We regret to inform that you are not through for the shortlisted candidates. It’s because we need candidates with good English communication......and bla...bla..bla...”

DAMN! Been rejected is soo hard! It’s even harder when it’s involve something that you think it’s your field to communicate well in English and at the end, it’s actually fails you.

Not that i’m complaining my English, but YES! I AM! i keep thinking on how to improve my English communication. Can someone send me in the Fed Ex box to English speaking countries so that i can learn mine? I do believe language is something you actually acquire. No matter how hard you learn, you will not be good as the native’s one if you don’t be surrounded by them or even used it in your daily life. So any solutions for me?

p/s: when the fall is too hard, you don't even feel the hurts.

: am i creating story up there? so not me! haha then who is ME?

life..

2010-09-16T23:28:00.003+08:00

hidup nie kadang-kadang sangatla 'menekankan' [ ignore the grammar..]
from every inch of you life..
up side down..it can push you to the bottom or even put you up high..
still...
nothing??...[idk!]
still job hunting sucks!!!!!
my life = pathetic.

p/s: seriously uncertain!

i win???

2010-08-22T03:06:00.001+08:00

p/s: yeah... i win!! soo please!!! let me go!!! huhuhuh

bla..bla..bla...

2010-08-21T19:50:00.000+08:00

it's such a lame when you're 22 but been treated like 12...

pick me...choose me...vote 4 me....

2010-08-19T02:55:00.005+08:00

how's the title???
psycho much??....ekeke..
the pick me..choose me lines is from Grey's..
i don't remember which season..
but i think the earlier one..when Meredith wants Derek to pick her over Addison..
ok..enough with Grey's triology...haha..not going to do the synopsis of the show here..
[btw..i just realised that, i missed private practice for the latest season!!]

ok...the thing that i want you to vote for is this!!!! hahaha.....

at first, i don't have any doubt of not going...since the price is quite expensive...and from the earlier post Geneses said it going to be RM150...but turn out it become Rm400 for the vvip...insane right? how on earth that would do. Still, i don't take much attention to the fanmeet, just listening to friends who's going. then, last night Unni Liza asked me where's my board?? She said you better do and post it there...your chance is still there..but then the leading person already got hundred 'LIKE' already..huhu...

so today's evening, i just gathered all my recycle things and started doing the board...i never thought it will turn out well and making Azeem as a model also sort of advantage..although his face full of chicken pox..ekeke...Right after berbuka, my board finished! this is my 2nd board so far..hehe and i posted it..and i started promoting it to friends. You never know what networking would do to you...and i'm very grateful to have supportive friends with me too in promoting the board's picture..haha [in the same time give a big traffic to 8tvnitelive facebook as well...

so...from there until now...i manage to collect 90 'LIKES' in 5 hours from all the friends....at first i thought only 10 people chosen to enter this contest and only 1 winner, but when i read again it said...

"The 10 people who get the most "Likes" for their photos will get the following:......."

so i still have the chance..as long as i maintain the 'LIKE' from the people....aaaa! still can't believe this!!!! hehe...will get to see the magnae in SS501 for free...hope the luck will be on my side..cause it never be when it comes to contest. huhuhu...

what can i say...i heart all of you who'd help...really!!! i've never done this before..and it's really a good and amzing things to do...thanks a million to Nieza, for being nervous with me, also working hard for the 'LIKE', i really touched how we could have done this so far cause not even a month we've know each other...that's the power of fandom...once a TS..always a TS....
Lets wait till the end of this contest..how much i would gain from this...it's end tomorrow, 20th August 2010 and the result will be announce on 21st August 2010 live from 8tv nite live...so tune in ya..? hehe..

and don't forget to "LIKE" this photo....

this is the link..

[8tv Kim Hyung Joon fan board contest]

if u unable to like it, just "LIKE' the 8tv page first, then you can proceed by "LIKE-ING" my board afterward...hehehe...see ya with the like!!!! hehehe

~~~~~UPDATE~~~~

the contest ends already today (21/8/2010). With over 260 likes...i just hope for the best...hehe...

p/s: feels like voting for the general election je...hehehe

clap..clap...clap...

2010-08-15T06:28:00.003+08:00

love tumblr!!!
wakakaka.....
new thing to explore hahaha...
dun know the function much except uploading...hahaha..

when a friend meets a friend...

2010-08-14T00:37:00.005+08:00

so here i am, in U.K.M again....2nd time this week...haha..
on Monday i already here with Fatin's family for her big day...
CONGRATULATION!!! friend...finally you're graduated!!!!
and on that day itself i received a call that interested in 'seeing' me that friday which means today...

and today i'm here again, arrived yesterday evening for an interview which happen this morning..
[ok...i feel this sentence kindda 'keling' sket...buat2 paham je la...] haha
so i stayed again..at U.K.M in fatin's room..hahaha..

the interview went well...
NO! i don't tersengguk this time...[cynical enough!]
i arrived an hour early..and since it was held in a famous place, Palace of the Golden Horses..
everybody said WOW!
but actually it's was occurred in the hotel's lobby! [screwed you!!]
i even asked the receptionist if there's any function room been booked by the company that i will be interviewed. but none!
aigo....luckily the interview went well..
most of it, they asked about how their methodologies can be imply in current education..
i just 'goreng' what i had too..
it turn out nice and harmony [cewah!! exaggerate ok!]
and both interviewer quite friendly and make the situation in a relax mode...
not hoping much...but if they offer good salary..i'll grab the chance...hehe

i had bukak puasa with Jue today...
unexpected plan turn out to be well planned...
been planning since last week..but since everything was in chaos..too hard to rush for a meeting..
so we finally made it today at MidValley!!!
the easiest place to reach from our place...hehe...
i arrived there late..around 715pm...
she's been there around 630pm...
poor her need to wait for me as she's came straight away from work...
we had our bimbimbap as always...ONLY bimbimbap..too broke to order others...ehehehe
and chit chatting n gossiping non-stop!!!
i told her bout my 1 month life, she told me about her new career life..
and it continue until we have to move on and take our own path again....
it's too different talking to people face to face compare to ym-ing or fb-king...
missed the old memories..=(

tomorrow...
journey back home..
to that undesirable, indescribable life...is it??

oh..when i'm in the train...i caught up a new word....
rarely used..first time i saw it in my life...
so who said they know everything about English vocab?? me..don't! haha

"refurbishment"

r-fûrbsh

[To make clean, bright, or fresh again; renovate.]

the report talk about the Hentian Pudu who will not finish re-build on this Hari Raya

and also this...was asked by Fatin's roomate,

"so·journ"

(sjûrn, s-jûrn)

[A temporary stay; a brief period of residence]

Simple meaning right...yet the word is soooo bombastic! soo realistic, fantastic..haahaha

p/s: a day..is a day..

people perception...

2010-08-13T13:42:00.005+08:00

p/s: screw the people...it's your life...hahaha... O_O

who am i?

2010-08-08T22:16:00.004+08:00

wah!! first time got a tag..and i got it from Tim..haha thanks so much dongsaeng! plus, it also the first time i'm thinking hard about myself..adeh!! right until i wrote this part, i manage to list down only 14 things about me...haha [bad..bad..bad..]

Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 30 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you!

1. i tend to write down things on paper first, then i will type it out. i have no idea y!

2. i think i've the split personality..hard to explain..but i just have.

3. i also think i have like 2 forever enemies in my life which would be really miracle if we be nice to each other again. but i have countless friends, so don't bother 'bout that. [ngeee...]

4. i hate my english. i made an entry about it before. but i love the language although i dun support the PPSMI..haha..[ dad, plz send me to the native speakers' countries..i don't mind sitting in the FedEx box like 'George of the jungle'. =P]

5. my weakness is that 'i care too much' [papa roach-scars]....on everything. [kindda sick sometimes but can't endure it yet...]

6. i simply get curious by everything...EVERYTHING! [thanks to the google by providing everything i need hakhakahk]

7. i can feel myself get drain from any good info or knowledge lately, which is bad! It's a sign that my brain just don't think hard. maybe due to lack of reading.!! aaaa come back to me~~~

8. because of Westlife, i have a penpal that last more than 10 years since i was 12 years old. And yes we're still in contact until today. *winks!*

9. because of SS501, i really expend my friends..from a stranger then turn into someone really close...that you never imagine how cool we are~~

10. i dun regret a single thing by being a fan, as much as it's look , i really learn a LOT of things that keep myself grows and making me of what i am today.

11. till this date, 080810 [nice number!] i'm still unemployed! attended one interview, but i screwed it up. [*bangs head to the wall~~~*]

12. it's hard to list 30 facts/things about yourself since, it's the people around you are judging you who you are and what you do.

13. writing is hard! i really adore people who writes so much yet so long in their blogs. Like they turn the talking into words..really wow! dat's y i really admire the writers..[novelist. script writers. etc..etc..]

14. i really can work under pressure. Really! it makes me more focus and i will be surprise with the result. and this time, you will see yourself pushing to the limit..whether u get through or failed!

15. if i drink nescafe, i can hold up until the next day not closing my eyes an inch. the most would be 24 hours non sleep! [it really happen!]

16. i haven't done my essay for job's application!!!!!!! [failed!!!!!]

17. oh..i love basketball but never in my life compete in a tournament.

18. i'm suck in spelling..so don't ever imagine myself in "Spell It Right" challenge...hahaha

19. kindda don't like the cheezy weezy lines...hahaha

20. i eat everything..except the rock and stick wood..[see the body la...haha]

21. if i pissed with people, i tend not to look into their eyes when we're talking..

22. i really wondering if i'm not taking TESL as my major, what would i do?

23. i can't measure things by math sequence e.g. 4km, 3m, just give me the exact info in things that i can see..like in minutes maybe? hahaha...

24. i'm still thinking hard now in completing this up to 30...haha

25. oh...my favorite line would be...'hahahaha' 'hehehehe' or 'ekekekeke'

26. i don't really into anime..i just read and follow detective conan only haha

27. i'm universal. not judging until it's should be judge.

28. i really believe that some people just born lucky enough in this world....O_O

29. most of the lines that i type here start with the pronoun 'I'. of coz..it's all referring to ME!

30. finally!!!! who am i??????

a SUPERMAN!!!!!
[joke...joke...joke...]

p/s: with these 30 facts it still hard to know a person..haha

August surprises...!!! Anyone?

2010-08-04T00:19:00.005+08:00

too many surprises in these few days, it really killing me inside softly...really!! aaaaaaa!

1. This fella is actually got her first job after graduating!!!!!!! ommo!! i'm speechless when she called me and keep saying OMG!OMG!...i tot of wat...n suddenly realized..yeah..she's going to start her hectic life soon. We're just got so inspired in finding the potential company or collage address to send out the resume the night before and today she got a call for being accepted to work! oh, hell YES i'm jealous!! haha...but not the negative one..more about myself being unemployed at home..Ju, kerja kuat2 yea?? Nanti blanje aku! hahaha

2. 김형준 is confirm going to town!!!!! i mean after the Geneses makes us, TS, to 'LIKE' their status for that, then late in the evening they announced that they will bring him for a fan-meeting/fan-signing..haha although he's not my 김현중..but still should support the SS501 members ..haha..also really give a big shock for a short notice like this...aaaa..a big plan ahead..stalking and hunting SS501 come again!! this time, he's alone..ekeke by the way, 생일축하합니다 (saengil chukha hamnida)김형준!!!

ekeke... as for now i need to find lots of money to keep my life flows...if not im dead...who said money isn't important in this world???

3. AirAsia also the one who turn me crazy too this time, how on earth they announcing the lowest price to Korea when im in this condition??? rm255 for 2-ways!!!!! way too cheap!!! really ar!!! i'm not able to breath! seriously..kindda going crazy also....all my friends that i know are going!! are!!! Chincha!!! T_T......i wanna go also...one of my friend even offer to pay for me first then i can pay her later...but i dun have gut to make the decision now...if im at Ju's position who already has a job, i would definitely going!

p/s: not really surprises..but yes...it makes my heart beats fast!!!! O_O

random....!

2010-08-01T02:36:00.004+08:00

i have nothing in mind...
or maybe i actually have it..but don't have the feeling to put it in words and sentences..haha
since this is a random post..
just want to make this 'home' alive....altho it's still lonely with nothing..hehehe O_O

p/s: oh...help me out with this lazies!!

permanently home...

2010-07-18T18:55:00.003+08:00

today is my [wait...i need to count 1st...fri,sat,sun??] 3rd day home! [3rd day baru??]
just spent the whole day unpacking all the 3 years stuff that i bought along with me no matter where i go...and it's lots!! mostly papers! hahaha...[poor trees..!]
what i mean by permanent is..i'm officially finish my study!!
yeay!! [is it really yeay??]
no more assignments..
no more exams..
no more lectures and bla..bla..bla..
sounds good ait?
but i still have a feeling that i'm in a short break as usual and will going back soon...
where?? i dunno..cause i don't have any place to go except here...hohohoh...
so here i am..
homey...
unemployed..
lingered around...

and i still haven't figured out what im going to do with myself..
people said fresh graduates always choosy in selecting jobs..
and now i do understand how it is as i'm one of them now..selecting based on what i want not what i'm needed...[understand??no?? forget bout it...]

aaa....and now i felt too lazy to update the resume...or even send some emails to the place that i really wanted to work with...[eh...where lorr?]

aaaa...! [scream in the head......]

aaaaaaa! [smack the head to the wall.....]

p/s can i hate 김현중 for no good reason?? huhuhu

how stupid is that???

2010-07-10T21:36:00.002+08:00

how stupid is that...
when u went for a job interview..
during the briefing about the company, products and bla...bla...bla..
with 12 other candidates...
you actually 'tersengguk'..
[gelap mase depan!]

p/s : i felt stupid and wanna kill myself! [dead....dead...dead] =(

so many things..yet so little time...

2010-07-01T11:21:00.004+08:00

it's been a while...
always been a while...
and always let it be as the way it is..
lots of things but then the environment or the mood or even too busy to blog..
should have just write the thought when i have one..
not like kumpul-ing it and then it will gone slowly..

so where should we start...
i'm need to be active today..
or not i'll be a dead 'moving' thing..
cause...
i HAVEN't SLEEP since yesterday!!!!
otookeee???
mengalahkan Meredith Gray....
it's all because of that so-called observation from the supervisor..
huhuhu...
we prepared everything..start from the lesson plans, the teaching aids and bla...bla...bla.. and i stayed up until now just to make sure all my works done for him...
but then...sharply at 7am this morning a msg came said...
"Morning.im so sorry i cant make it for today. down wit fever. can i come on tues?"
hasnah scream...me plak just...feel nothing!
huhuh kuasa tuhan nak deman...what can we do...huhuhu

so here i am...
telling those who reading this ntah ape2 rant...huhuh
it's been everything in this late 2 weeks..
both my brothers now in their new life as a true student life in campus...
while mine also towards the end of being a student..
feel sad...in the same time relieved..but mostly uncertain..
about what?
about what i will be done after this whole practicum ends..it's around 1 week left before it ends
seriously no thought..and plans?? all plains failed...
and now i hate to plan...may the days and time decide what will happen..
whether i stay or gone for good...
so..if any of u know places searching for employee call me ya?? haha

hmm...also something happen to the person i most blogged here..
if u're familiar here [like there's one la kan? haha] of cause no other than 김현중....and the other lads...
one post will up about them...it takes a while to process eveything in gathering all the thoughts..
waiting for the good news to surface..and hope the BOND will be forever..
without a leader is not the same...[yeah...i'm listening to Forever now and if it's Haruman@Only One day..i would teared up! tear aje..not crying..haha] huhuhu
if u don;t understand a thing about this paragraph..just leave it there..hehe..no harm or lost of skipping it...
y always about that 김현중 and Double S 5 Oh 1? because they're the spotlight in mine now..hahahaha..so..Let Me Be The One who Love Ya Forever! [of cuz not me only lorr...haha]

so..anything else happen to me? none maybe..or i can't recall..
my brain cells decreased...that cause the short term memory and also the laziness in me..
scientific proven? none! cause i made that up! hahaha

ah-ha!!! i sent my enemy away already!!! yep3 that bloody term-paper!!! haha i dunno what my other supervisor would think..but believe me sir..
i put so much effort in it...really!!! chommal!!! [watever..like he believe u!] hahaha
and end up a friend who always quite low in our group already got a green light to 'jilid' her term paper...sagt x adil! huhuhu...anything depends on lecturer...
can i say that campus life 50% of what u've done or mark or anything come from them?
no matter how much u scored in ur presentation and bla..bla..bla...at the end...same O same O result happen! cet3! and how Malaysia wanna do the school based assessment towards the school pupils and students? haha Ministry, u should explain further..not just uttering it out cause u think it's worth to try...no..no..no..! better dun try or else would happen...

is my not-having-sleep for a day makes me this chatty and mumbling? if this what happen i'd love it! hahaha..
but make sure i'm not 'tersengguk2' in the staff room sudah! hahaha...

think have to go now...
chekgu petang dh nak masuk...n i'm one of chekgu petang seat..looking for available plug to cucuk krolll's laptop...hahah sorry bro..u're lappy quite tempting compared to mine! [i might share how my laptop looks lilke..ahaha u'll be speechless] hahaha...

so folks..till then...annyonngggg!!!!

p/s : should i apply for a writer or journalist position?? [bajet!!!] =P
p/s : and i survived today from the sleepy head!! O_O
p/s : n now the playlist play the Only One Day song......T_T

[no entry]

2010-06-25T20:17:00.001+08:00

i'm sooo freakin' lazy in updating THIS blog!!!!!
so how???? ootoookeee???
[die...die...die....@_Y]

leader said.....

2010-06-14T01:07:00.004+08:00

Leader 김현중: "I love You"
Green peas: "One more time! One more time!"
Leader 김현중: "I'm not an easy man."

awwwwww....!
this is what happen at the Newton FanMeet..as the boys actually
held a mini show for green peas..
can help but to post those conversation...
ekekekeke.....

and all of them crying(T_T) esp jung min & hyung joon...

is leader's speech dat touching? haha

p/s: my holiday ends today...hukhukhuk..

things getting worst...

2010-06-09T13:53:00.002+08:00

check my result last night..
with empty feeling...uncertain also..
and.....DANGGGGGG! it's really hit me hard..
but i've no feeling...
hopeless maybe...
towards the end of everything, things getting worst..and worsen..
penat je maintain from the start.. =(

let's see how the remain 2 will succeed or will fall in the same place....
and now i know..when we're really get used to certain things, we don't bother to feel or change it...

p/s: makes me even more wondering what will i do in the future...

school holiday!!!!

2010-06-06T22:39:00.006+08:00

i just love holidays!!!
even more when i'm in the 'half-career' world!!
ekekekeke....

[school holiday!!!!! oyeh...oyeh....]

by the way..
today's 06-06-2010

김현중
생일 축하해요
[saeng-il chukha-haeyo]
happy best-day!!! hahaha

and....

of coz i'm home!!! ekekeke....
term paper mode DEACTIVATE!!!
O_O

p/s: hehehehe....ideas...come..come to me!

tell me goodbye...

2010-05-22T17:54:00.003+08:00

Pejam celik, next week is going to be 10th weeks already i'm in school! time flies! really!i never expacted it would be this fast..with so many things undone..with only 1 observation so far...i could never expect this experience going to end soon! it's about 4 week to go before it's all end. Stop talking about missing, cause i already did. Even now i already think about that Year 1 troops. hmmm...will they learn better after this? will they listen well to the teacher who replace me? too many questions..and only time has the answer. should i just say goodbye?

One of the blog that i always visit said goodbye today...when i'm tweeted her asking about it, she felt it's not save anymore to her spilling things or secret there...huhu that's hard..it's like you love to do the blogging but it's just can't be done anymore...i like to read her rant..how's sometime she can be mad about the days haha..and she share same interest in KIM HYUN JOONG...aaaaa! i'm following her ok! not stalking! haha... Me myself also feel too lazy in updating this blog...i have the story but don't have the words to story...that's bad...cause i think when you writing, it's like you tell stories to other, no matter what story it is..if you fail to make them understand or even smile or even has a gist of feeling..you just failed! should i just say good bye too?

and..today also i've got a news about my term paper's date of submission...our previous seniors got to sent it a week after the practicum, and Labu done it in about 1 week time only! As for us, the bad news is a new date has been finalised on 18th JUNE!!!!!! next month!!! in about 2 weeks time!! and it's get even worst when i'm done nothing with it...means..i haven't start anything! aigooooo! My friends @ facebook keep stating that they not going to grad this year due to the extension of this term paper subject! Guys..., better we fight till the end...just do and push hard..i know we all can do it...don't give up or in...i'm not sure about myself..but i will catch up till the due! and this time..i never can say good bye..and welcome to it once more...just can't! this time just go with the flow! =)

enough with these goodbye (s)...and this 'Good bye' is worth to listen, i tell you...

i love the song...kindda like usual english pop song..could be like BSB or N Sync...and the concept quite cool!...way to go guys!

p/s: tell the good-bye if it's needed....hohoho..

1st present as a teacher..

2010-05-10T00:21:00.006+08:00

i know Teacher's Day would be long way to go....not too long also..on 16th May [my mom corrected me...you can see in the side bar haha]...but this time, i'm really flattered when i got it last Friday from my year 1 student, Syahreez. Last Friday was the nursery rhymes competition for Year 1...it's actually for the English week activity, but then the teacher's in charge wants to do it quickly last week...with no preparation done by me and my class, we just practiced in the class only 2 days before the competition day.

and..you can already guess how they performed that time, dalam kelas bukan main....korang la hero...atas pentas...mulut pun x bukak! uih....! geram pun ade...but then..they did their best and got the 5th place among 7th....tooo bad! haha...

then, during the recess, this boy came to the staff room and looking for me. i never expected he would do such thing, coz he's just like a mature boy..how to say ya... for example, while all his friends is competing to write in front, on the whiteboard, he just sit there and wait till them finish, you know kids react when they get excited... but he's really a good student of mine. ok..back to the story..Syahreez come to me and show me this 'thing' as if it is mine...but it is not...then i told him, "it's not mine....and r u sure it's mine?" then he just said, "i bought it for you..." and ran away after i gave him lollipop in return....

and it is....a PEN MERAH!!!

[the pen merah...]

[some of the boys with the 5th sign: aiman dracula, shuhyl and syahreez]

p/s: i'm really touched for it.......and senah laughed very hard for this...! cet3!!!!!!

You know i love you.....

2010-05-09T01:34:00.002+08:00

p/s: =)

nose bleed!!!!!

2010-04-30T23:30:00.003+08:00

it's been released!!!!!!!!!

and this man is sooooo......[you named it!!]
aaaa!!! nose bleed alredi!!!

and...and...and.....this is the photo jacket for the 5.01 days comeback....[coollll!]

p/s: looks like an alien! ekekeke....but anticipating tho! =)

failed!

2010-04-28T14:56:00.004+08:00

i scream out of my lung for Year 1 class today...Yes! i know it's bad! really bad...and my lesson objective cannot be archived for Year 5 lesson...actually for both classes i guess...what happen for me today, i also dun know.

In Year 5 class, i suddenly felt lost...i dunno how to teach them..i can feel they're making judgment towards me...what a thought! even when i said simple things in English pun, still they cannot understand what im saying and yet act like you're already born with English as ur native language!! arrrghhh....geram nye!!! and i hate textbook! y English need to be taught using that horrible textbook! plz3! and why our education is based on the exam oriented! i also not a good English learner...i know to differentiate the using of is, are , was, were when i was in standard 6, and believe me...Westlife songs really help me in my vocab. You can ask my father for the clarification..i used to remember, every morning before i go to school, i will start the car's engine, insert the Westlife cassette into the radio and sing along with the lyrics in my hands. i do it every morning. i know it's not easy to acquire the language...until now i'm also still struggling with it. And im also not perfect! You can see the grammatical errors in the posting or even misspell words in it. sigh~~~

and for Year 1, i feel really sorry and pity for them. There are students who really give full commitment in class. i feel happy with that. i'm not blaming them for always running here and there, for always seeking for my attention in everything they've done, for everything they said about my attitude, or even if they always asking me to go to the toilet hundred times. they still young and still in the playing mode. i always try my best to make them enjoy with English lesson, even though, sometimes i also can't think of any activity that can be used in the class. But please students, this trainee teacher sometimes just need all of you to follow the instructions. i can the frustration in your eyes saying "What a boring English class and activities." but...but...but... in order you to know the language, you need to go thru all that just like i did when i was in standard 1. huhuhu....

believe me, i really want to do anything just to make sure all of you can used the language as much as i do. As English period is only for 1 hour, it's hard for me to focus to eac one of you. Don't tell me other teachers can as they already teachers while i'm a trainee.

in the school, only me and senah is the truly English teachers, meaning born from the English teaching training while others mostly come from the KPLI program. Not that they don't qualified, it's just there're still something lacking in their teaching...and who am i to judge them as i also the trainee...but please teachers.. (as im also remind for myself)..the one who we're teaching right now is our own people. Malay to be specified, the one who's always been label low achiever in English language and proficiency. There's still lacking English teachers in school, it's a fact that can't be deniable nor be argued.What will happen next? i also don't know...just let wait and see if there's any progress with Year 5 class.

soothing words?

p/s: down! n tired! =(

Annyeong...!! 안녕하세요

2010-04-23T11:38:00.003+08:00

p/s Isn't he's adorable??? ekekekeke....

credit: Lois

weekend's coming!!!

2010-04-16T12:07:00.001+08:00

p/s: bye...bye...school..see u on Monday! yada!!yada!!!! [kecoh sungguh!] hahaha....

as a matter of food...

2010-04-06T16:31:00.007+08:00

Me and labu and senah...usually craving for this thing...but mostly me and labu la...senah just like so..so..hahaha and last week,we fulfilled our cravenness.....hahaha

Presenting.........

bibimbapppp
비빔밥,
"mixed rice"
.....hahaha.....
[does the yolk looks tempting? haha]

the hungry face...=)

the 'tahan nafsu' face...[wakakaka]

before....

do you smell wat senah is cookingggggg??! haha

keep stirring....

and more stirring...caution for the hot-ness haha

satisfied faces...haha

finally....[after] haha..licin!

haha even the ahjuhmma said long time no see to us..and i also wondering is she really recognise us that well...hehe and as usual..we got a free

Tteokbokki (Stir Fried Rice Cake)
[this is how it looks like, no pictures taken for this dish as we 'ngap' it like a hungry crocodile!]

hahaha....

love that ahjuhmma very much...hehehe of cuz for the free food..hehehe...so here goes the food! our routine food if happen the triplet go for an outing....hahaha

p/s: updating this post make me hungry......[krok...krokk....krokk......]
: oh...this stall situated at The Garden Food Court..n the price is reasonable and u'll be fulled for the whole day! [am i promoting?? haha]

i hearby.....

2010-04-06T14:07:00.002+08:00

declaring them as monkeys!!!!!!!

[me in the hot-tempered mood..huhu]

p/s: need more experience in managing class control.....help~~~~~!!!!!

honked to: WMX 6502

2010-04-06T13:51:00.003+08:00

bapaku pulang dari kota... bapaku 'beli' kan kereta.. kereta 'kecil' warna 'merah'.. boleh ku bawa ke sekolah.. pon..pon..pon..pon..pon.. kereta 'kecil'ku berbunyi.. marilah kawan mari naik.. boleh ku bawa pergi ronggeng......

[wakakakaka...]

p/s: give a hon if u see meee!
: i've just made another debt before i even graduated! =(
:but still...thanks to the sponsers....=P

SUJU Super Show: I was there.......!!!

2010-04-06T11:48:00.010+08:00

20/03/2010

this is also a late post...this concert happened for the last 2 weeks i guess...but the important thing....i was thereeeeeeeee!

For the first time in my live, I involved in this…I tot I would attend westlife’s but then no luck in past 10 years, then I moved to SS501, but still they didn’t include Malaysia as one of the stop in their Persona tour! Huhuh…and luckily to me and unimaginely, I was there!!! Cheering and becoming the blue E.L.F.

What more can I say….no words can describe..but since it should be describable, it was

· Deeebakkkkkk!!!!!

· Awesome!!!

· Sporting!!!

· Heart pumping!

· And I love their fan services!!! They’re too good and sempoi I would say!

So let the pictures do the talking ya....

* Dangerous Cinderella – Heechul - he's sooo into his own world that night..busy playing with soft toys fans

throw at them...hehe

* A Living Work of Art – Siwon (oh boy, yeah!) hahaha.....he has the 'chocholate' bebeh!!! hahaha...other members

also like to tease him with picking up his shirt....hahaha

* Hottest Baby – Kyuhyun - awwwwww! now only i know his name...this magnae so cute!!!!! hahaha...

* Bubble Boy – Yesung - dunno where's the bubble..but he seems quite too that night, but has magnificent voice...

* Lovable Blurness – Ryeowook - i don't think he's blur...i always see him as lead vocal in every songs, and he really show himself that night...

* Ultimate Sweetness – Sungmin records his own performance in the iphone! hahaha...adorable!

* Bejewelled – Eunhyuk- this fella was really cute! nothing much to say about him..but he's cute la....!

* Sexy Fishy – Donghae - he's the man of the night!!!! yeah!!!! hahaha i never know his existance in SUJU but, after been mention by Lia, my neighbour...he sure catch my eyes lotts! and he has good abs!!!

[man of the night!! of man!!] haha

* Cutie Pie – Shindong - the only chubby guy in all korean boyband! ahahaha...

* Fallen Angel – Eeteuk - always show his side of being a leader!!! and he's cried during the shining stars song!!! awwww....maybe overwhelmed by the support...hehe

[the starting logo]

[the ticket]

[the scandal& sponser: thaannnkkss a looottt!]

[the 'blue' waves from my seat!!!]

[again...the blue lights..n im sure nobody turning blue..ahahha]

[press con pic: from left sshindong,eunhyuk,kyuhyun,yesung,donghae,sungmin,ryeowook,heecul,siwon, eeuteuk]

[the friends...!]

[the performances: f(x) cover-chu~~]

[sorry sorry...the mania!]

[the boys enjoying themselves]

[the encore...:cute with the animals hat]

p/s: the most thing that i regreted was...i don't have or bring any cam(s) with me! aaaaa!!! really wanna scream if i remember bout this...
:i only know 4 or 5 of their songs hahaha....not a big fan though...=P
:they really have the 'aura'..and stunted the whole stadium...
:now..hoping for Double S Five 0 One to touch down here too...! huhuhuhu

~credit pictures as tangged! =)~

moving to a new shelter......

2010-04-05T21:46:00.005+08:00

20th March 2010

Okkkkey......first post for the passed few weeks of everything! i just realised that i only post up 2 entries in February and also 2 for March, aaaaa! what happen to me?? hahaha.....today would be the most tragic day i would say...y? wait till the end ya...hehe, as i remembered, today i drove from Kajang to Unisel..been promised with Senah to pick up and moved all of our things at the hostel...sooo sad.! after 3 years been loyal to it, finally it's time to move out. huhuhu....

we found a new 'shelter ' here at Kundang, a place that i know the existance due to the school that we get for practicum, SK Seri Kundang...hehe ...So back to the journey, i start my journey around 7am in the morning, after few delays also..finally....

around 9am, i arrived at Unisel and start to 'punggah' all of our things. Imagine for 3 years, i've never ever bought home any stuff...i mean the clothes,books and few other things, plus with senah things...i would say the car looked soo packed as the tyres will going to pop soon! and that [xyqtgendkkshr] thing happened due to my stupidity crushing a rock on the road!!! and we stranded at the Fruit Valley road...the road which rarely have any car passed around accept the big lorries!!! luckily, it's in the middle noon...around 12pm..and it's very hot!!!! waaaaa....! Thanks to Wani Jpam for the help in calling the mechanic and change the tyres..and for your info that car is a borrowed car! huh!!! wat a fate! and it's not ends there.....

Arrived at Kundang around 1pm...and we're fully of relieved because there's no more bad thing happen and yes! we're wrong! i missed the junction to our rented house..and start to reverse without looking back...and baaannngggg!!!!!! [waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! is the tyre 'meletup' again????] buttt....we actually 'kiss' another car butt!! and that Pak Cik was full of suprise as his new Persona, i would say...scratch and broke the signal lamp..! the one in the bottom...not the middle one...and he could't angry with us more since he's going to surau for zohor....hehehe [x baik marah2 kan?]...i'm down! really are! is everything happen due to the 'thing' that im going to attend this late evening???

luckily, Cg. Nor's home, she's the owner..and again..we start to get out all of our things into our new shelter...! Yes our new,simple,sempit shelter! but, fortunately have all the electronic n electric stuff inside! hahaha....far way behind to be compared to Unisel's hostel...huhuh but we try to be grateful..try to adjust everything so that we can make this new shelter comfortable and appropriate to live...plus the rent is reasonable enough for both of us....and now...here we are..in our 3rd weeks here...and now fighting with Cik Tikus in the house!!!!! arghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

[1st pic, the entry door,straight to our beds]

[2nd pic, the back room where all things been stuffed!]

p/s: Mami...my new shelter...! finally! upload! hahaha...

so much to say.....

2010-04-01T01:07:00.007+08:00

"so much to say..
but where do i start..
would u listen if i spoke from the heart...."

Westlife - Don't Say It's Too Late

hehe...
long time no write..
honestly speaking, i've been very busy for these passed 2 weeks..
practicum + lesson plan + school activities + bla..bla..bla..
feeling like already as a career woman!
huhuh...
there're lots to say..
but like the lyric said, i dunno where to start...
hehe..
i will try this weekend to update....lots..lots..of stories..
hehehe

and..and...and...
been reading Kak Syud blog and she post bout 김현중 playing soccer with some friends
and...and..and...
i can't help to not to post these 2 photos.....
ekekekekeke

~non-gelled hair!~

~seexxyyy backkkk hakhak~

p/s: 1st May come faster for the comeback!! haha

Lost..!!!!

2010-03-08T01:52:00.004+08:00

i lost my wallet today!!!
[hate..hate..hate...]
this is me being careless!!
dun know when i dropped it but i know where!
it's after i'm buying the newspaper this morning..
n i confidently sure it's dropped when i'm about to close the car's door!
it once happen to my hp..n luckily it still can be founded..
but...when it comes to wallet + money....jgn harap la...
sighhh........
my red wallet!
hukhukhuk....
dah kene climb up sume gov offices for I/C and lesen and atm card!
huhuhuh...
and senah would be happy cause at last the red old wallet had been vanished!
cause she's always nagging me to buy a new and ladies one..[yarksss!]
hohohoho...
how many people would return a lost wallet??

p/s: dejavu ??? =(

TESL Masquerade Night 2010.....

2010-03-05T20:00:00.012+08:00

Date: 27th February 2010

the deco team.. (BTS)

the candle.... (hakhakhak..)

the potpourri(s) making....

the girlfriends....

the 'girl'? (erk...?)

the hungers...haha

the phantom(s)...

the seniors....

the performance....

the lecturer....( kehkehkeh)

the vogue MC! haha..

the black(s)....

the masquerade(s)....

the heels n mask!

p/s:

1) What A NIGHT!!! Suprise!! Suprise!! (In everything...+ n - things do happen!)
2)No...i dun stumble, tersadung or wat so ever dat nite...haha
3) bulat? gelap? black? -----> me la tue!
4) Yes! dat's the black dresssss!
5) n..heels are not my things! really!! too painful! =(

kerana sepasang dress....

2010-02-27T02:24:00.003+08:00

selama 22 taun aku hirup oksigen kt muke bumi nie, this is the first time thing really changing in me. As we grow older, we can see how different we can change before we realise about it. i'm born in a family which have strong men in the house. Meaning that, the influence of being a cute little girl with a pink dress, a nice girlie shoes and even a long hair would never happen in my life since my other 4 siblings are boys. As i remembered when i'm a kid around 5-7 years old, i can count how many times i wore a skirt and it happen only once. For the first time dressing in a flowery girlie dress was when i'm in standard 1 at SKKD, singing rhyme songs in front of the assembley which was on 1995.....that was the last! and it was a borrowed one!

After that, i'm more comfortable with trousers and shirts and short hair! Each day, I've been dreaming in becoming the most 'slumber' person with a slumber attire. i always have a thought that women clothes are to hard to wear. Mane nak matching dengan handbag la, kasut la and stuff. That's no including make-up n stuff.! so by wearing n adoring men's attire sort like a must in teenager time! hahaha

and 360 degree thing happen was, yesterday when i bought myself a dress! a black dress to be exact for tesl masquerade nite, after an emergency plan at 8pm last nite for the dress hunting! am i insane??? when i make the decision to take 'it' as part of my life (cewah!!!!), i'm shivering really hard! it's like how the groom wants to shake tok kadi's hand for akad nikah! seriously! i bought that??? OMG! and yeah...thanks to the peers all around me who keep pushing me saying this is the last of all, "mane lagi ko nak pakai mcm nie, nie la last beb! idup ke mati ke ko kne cari jgk sepasang dress!" bla...bla..bla...watever! hahaha

and...and...and...the most xleh blah part was:

Harvey: hahaha the most highlight part for tomorrow event is seeing u in dress!!! finally! yeah3! (me: @%#^$&**(!(&#^#*#&^)

Leen: ahaha ak nak tunggu die pakai heels!!! (me: nak tgk ak jth tergolek ye?)

so, tomorrow would be the day! no expectation other then, i maybe 'tersadung' somewhere due to the heels or...something else happen!! (down~~~~)

p/s: and senah also finally decided in looking one for her since i used the same approach as the other above, "bile lagi nak ade baju mcm tue???" wakakakaka and the hunting mission begin again tomorrow for the masquerade ball at night!!

i want updates....!!

2010-02-22T18:08:00.005+08:00

i want to update my blog!!
so much to says and tells and stories...
but then..the laziness stops me!
i am such a lazy person! am i lazy?
yes i am! haha
i want to tell how we're ended up eating at the ahjuhmaa korean food stall twice last week,
i want to say how busy i am for this whole week with class and tesl nite yg ntah ape2 tue..,
i also want to tell story about senah's terengganu trip..(but the..let her storyla kan?)
hahahaha

p/s: any medicine for that??

i feel annoyed!

2010-01-25T19:56:00.000+08:00

have you ever cross a person who is very annoying?
[bohong la x pernah! haha]
that even sometime when she's talking you can't even has an eye contact
with them..
and..as a result, sometimes you become a little harsh/malas nak layan..
with her 'angkat bakul' or overact stories..
and you end up replying back with short sentences or silence....
[hmmm.....]
but then, you trapped between those feeling cause sometimes she can be nice also...
[hate it!]
huhuhuhuh....
n i still dunno how to react..!

p/s: stop with the 'stories!!!!'

short trip: Ipoh...

2010-01-25T16:38:00.003+08:00

nothing much to say about this trip, it's my 2nd trip here and it's like a usual trip back home with a warmly acceptance by Pearl's family. Basically, me and hasnah only had window + shopping (= broke <----only happen to me...hehe) as before that Pearl make us believe only rm20 is needed when you're outing somewhere at Ipoh. But then, when the sales are up till 80%, nothing can be done to stop the spending..and people said, why need to visit shopping complex everywhere we go? My simple answer is, "who cares!' hahaha...

the most funny thing is, when we're about to buy 'limau bali'(s) [can't recall the english name for that..hehe mian~~] as Pearl joked with us before arrived at the stalls that there will be pretty girls waiting for us in front of the stalls. I was like..."yela tuh..." but surprisingly, when we finally arrived, there're girls with beautiful figure come out from each stall, like persuading us to buy from them [ i think this is because all the stalls there sell 'limau bali' and the market is quite competitive. One way to attract the customers, may be...hehe]. As we laughed very hard on what had happen, we choose to buy from the ladies who come out first and bought 4 limau bali for rm25...[lepas puas negotiate harge..hehe]

p/s: it's a short trip..of cuz the story also will be short...hehehe...
: thanks for everything Pel..nanti wak steamboat ajak le kitaorg lagi skali....ekekeke =P

the work-husband and work-wife...

2010-01-20T17:08:00.004+08:00

Adele: Miranda.
Bailey: Oh Adele. Oh I'm so sorry, I sent the Chief into surgery. Do you want me to-
Adele: What I want is for you to tell me the truth. Are you having an affair with my husband?
Bailey: I am not having an affair with your husband!
Adele: I saw the way you handled him just now.
Bailey: Handled! I did not... handle... there was no handling... we work together.
Adele: You spend every waking moment together, you finish each others sentences, you read each others minds. You're more married to that man than I am.
Callie: Yeah, but that's just because they're husband and work-wife.
Bailey: Excuse me?

Callie: The Chief's your work-husband and you're his work-wife. You look our for each other, you take care of each other, there's nothing wrong with it, it's like me and Sloan.
Mark: Excuse me?
Callie: Nobody's talking to you. He's my work-husband but he has a girlfriend, I have a girlfriend, but nothing going on between us.
Mark: I mean, there was at one point...
Callie: You're not helping.
Bailey: Neither one of you are helping. Adele, I promise you there is nothing going on.
Adele: Something is going on because he hasn't been in his bed all week.
Bailey: What?
Mark: Really?

Grey's Anatomy S6

- i was laughing really hard when i watched this scene! hahahahaha how come Adele has that thought towards Bailey..hehe Bailey n the Chief?? She's like his guidance angel in SGH or the work-wife to him....hahahahaha

- as i watching back grey's, all i can think is doctors are also human being. They made mistakes like any other people, it's just that they're dealing with someone life....a simple mistake may cause the worse case happen...so do i worried if i'm the patient and the mistake is on me, what would happen? huhuhuhu...

and....

i love Mer narration in this:

"Sometimes the past is something you just can't let go of. And sometimes the past is something we'll do anything to forget. And sometimes we learn something new about the past that changes everything we know about the present."

and i guess it's true.... =)

p/s: at last, i can post an entry today! hahaha...
: and one of my friend said my blog is devoted for k-pop since more posts 'bout them..haha...[no la Qd...some stuff je bout the k-pop is up hahaha..]

2010....

2010-01-01T20:37:00.005+08:00

New Year....!!!
what's so special?
everything still in the same old places..
nothing much change...
same resolutions..
same aims..
same targets..
do not realise if 2009's achieved coz i already forgot what is it.. [bad...bad..bad..]
hmm...
so pessimist rite...hahaha...
however..will looking foward this 'new' year flows..
hope been able to breath the same O2 through out the year until the next year..
so still...[HAPPY NEW YEAR] everyone.. =)

p/s: my hometown been raining non-stop for the whole day...
[hujan rahmat kah? amin!...]
umur dah bertambah lagi setahun oiiii...! [mature nye x pun! haha]

dream trip: BANGKOK!

2009-12-23T22:25:00.013+08:00

i really wanna go for PERSONA IN BANGKOK
on 13 February 2010 okey!!!!

since that will be the LAST Persona concert for the Double S 501 boys for the 1st Asia Tour....
no more Malaysia..or even Singapore...
although they promised to come here on the Sept fan meeting in
Malaysia..huhuhu....
i don't know why i become this crazy and unwell this time...
i check the flight ticket..
and even found a group to join in this trip as they also would love to be there...
(lucky them....huhuh)
and also already plan the budget for the whole things...
still at the end....the NO..NO..is there...
the spirit would be high and low...upside down..left to right n etc..
I WANNA GOO!!! please!! let me!! huhuhu

[when will can i see them live???]

[and when will i can see this heartthrob-ing smile in person??]

p/s: when it comes to these boys, my heart would never agree on
what my brain's thought huhuhu......
[and it's still a dream that would not become true..=( ]

-pictures credit as tagged
-Credit:Video source + English translation: Mel@KimHyunJoongThailand.com
Subbed: Reena + poohhl @youtube

posted: http://ss501ufo.blogspot.com/

i'll be back....=)

2009-12-11T22:48:00.003+08:00

it's been a long time since the last entry....[sigh...suddenly love writing]
i think there're lots to be told..but no mood n time n space...[maybe...haha]
i'm currently in my final mode..but soon to be ended this sunday!!! [yipeee...yeaaa]
lot of things happened before that: classes, assignments, presentations..
the last thing was submitting the testing & evaluation report which gave us
nightmares to complete it...[tebal ooo..]
this 7th sem [the most busiest among all] also going to end soon...[sob...sob..=(]
lots of memories, friends come and go...
also looking forward for this semester holiday to come.....
and i'll be back! [ngeee...hehehe]

p/s: need to do something during the break that will bring in money!! any vacancies?? hahaha

rewarding myself?

2009-11-15T04:07:00.004+08:00

can i rewarding myself up? haha..
since the 'suam-suam' birthday already away..
after a long hard works...
after countless presentation & micro-tech...
after a late stay-up in completing everything....
i think i deserve it....hehe..
already placed the order...
will update soon when it's arrive in the mail box! hahah

super excited!

p/s: it don't comes cheap! [i'm positive!]
: it's 416am..n i'm still writing... =(

women are not that hard to hold....

2009-11-15T03:01:00.006+08:00

i've just finished watching 'The Proposal' (yea...yea...i know i should have finish my proposal..but it's 90% done within a day, should give me a clap what? haha...) Ok! back to the story, (Ryan Reynolds is soooo adorable!!!! [iklan]) hahaha....i love the movie...it's just a simple storyline.. There will be always an arrogant woman who acted up like a dictator and somehow finally fallen in love with the guy that she never though would be the one for her..(luckily everything it is, that guys always end up to be the handsome and the handsome one!) . And it is the woman who will surrender first when it's come to to feeling-thingy thing. Meaning, if the woman really do falling in love, we will take the action first, whether to back-off or even to stand-up straight for the man she love....(am i talking bout love here?? sigh...=))

Sometimes, women used to be scared and they just like to preserve themselves not to be hurt to much or rather been hurt alone when the feeling involve. we're not that complicated (i assumed! hehe..) we're just act according to nature and think what is the best for the one we love...( yes! i'm talking bout love...haha) I just love the last scene of the movie when Margeret said her lines:

"There's a reason why i've been alone along this time..it's because i'm comfortable that way..i think it would be easier if we forgot everything that happen and i just left..."

Andrew just keep looking at her and said:

"you're right, it would be easier..."

at last..she was saying....

"I'm scared!"

scared to fall in love or being hurt by love....(my interpretation of cuz....)

My second fave movie after 'The Lake House'...i've once asked a guy, if he happen to be in the same situation like Keanu Reeves in the movie,would he do the same thing as him?..And he said, if that what it takes, he will wait until that time...so man do have that instinct to wait..(when it come to right person and situation....curious? find the movie and watch urself what happen..hehe) 2nd movie also by Sandra Bullock that i love...hehe...

p/s: As the men keep wondering where's his Cinderella, we're also keep looking where is my Prince Charming
:it's 3.24 am..and i'm still awake! this sleeping disorder had strucked me badly!!

i'm lazy!!!!!!

2009-11-14T02:15:00.008+08:00

to tell you the truth.......

i'm in my lazy mood rite now!!!!!
even more lazy if compared to this Garfield!!!

i haven't finished my research proposal that supposed to due last thursday !

i haven't updated this blog for a long time!
i 've done nothing!!!
argghhhhhh!!! i hate this! my everyday activities: got up, class, korean! (to be precise update about ss501), eating and eating and eating and sleep!
i lost my courage, spirit n bla...bla...bla...in finishing my works! (even senah keep nagging n smirk at me!)
i don't know wat's happening to me...it's like my brain dosen't function anymore!!
and....for sure...i'm gaining my weight just like the Garfield!
so wat am i going to be? the next orange Garfield???
i'm lethargic!
i'm pethetic!
this is me right now!

p/s: i hate me!!
: and it is 240am...and i'm still not editting my proposal's introduction yet! [dead!] n my friday's just went off like that! sighhh..... =(

thank you.....

2009-10-27T03:27:00.003+08:00

Translation

Thank you..
For staying by my side
Nervous..
Walking this road with you

I love u..
The awkward words that I want to say in front of you
Be blessed..
I must let u live well

Sorry..
For meeting someone like me
Painfull..
I’m still lacking in many ways

I will be by your side until the end
I will protect the beautiful you

I pray not to release this hands even if I die
I promise to walk with you until the end of time
Because the extreme love
can be worn out of time
I vow to keep the beautiful memories
And even the days that we cried

Sorry..
For not able to be better
Painfull
That I am always lacking in some ways

I will protect you until the end even if it’s hard
I will protect the beautiful you

I pray not to release this hands even if I die
I promise to walk with you until the end of time
Because the extreme love
can be worn out of time
I vow to keep the beautiful memories
And even the days that we cried

Only you can forgive my heart
Even though I am imperfect
Even though I am lacking in many ways
I sincerely want you

Even if the days of difficulties were to come
I will not release the two hands that I hold until the end of time
Because the extreme love
can be worn out of time
I vow to keep the beautiful memories
And even the days that we cried

Thank you..
For staying by my side

Romanzation

komapta
nae gyeote meomulleo jwoso
tteollinda neowa hamkke gal i giri
saranghae ni apeseo haneun eosaekhan mal
haengbokhae jal sarajwoyahae

mianhae
na gateun saram manaseo
apeuda cham manhi bujokhan naega
neoui gyeoteseo kkeut kkaji hamkke hae julke
yeppeun neoui moseub jikyeoga julke

jugeodo
i son nohji anhgil gidohae
sesang kkeut kkaji
hamkke georeogagil yaksokhae
jidokhan sarangi
shigane jichyeoseo uneun naredo
maengse halke yeppeun chu-eok kkok jikilke

mianhae
deo jalhae juji mot haeseo
apeuda neul mojaran nae moseubi
himdeurodo na kkeut kkaji jikyeobwa jullae
yeppeun neoui moseub jikyeogajulke

jugeodo i son nohji anhgil gidohae
sesang kkeut kkaji hamkke georeogagil yaksokhae
jidokhan sarangi shigane jichyeoseo uneun naredo
maengse halke yeppeun chu-eok kkok jikilke

neoman iyeo ya haneun nae maeumeul yongseo hagil
manhi bujokhaedo
manhi mojarado
ganjeolhi neol wonhaneun na in-geol

ttaeroneun himdeun nari chaja ondedo
sesang kkeut kkaji jabeun du son nohji anheulke
jidokhan sarangi shigane jichyeoseo uneun naredo
maengse halke yeppeun chu-eok kkok jikilke

komawoyo nae gyeote meomulleo jwoso

p/s: i'm touched with no reason! wakakaka....
[sorry bro..the words die and not releasing hands until the end is in here...hehe]

between a holiday and homework(s)

2009-10-22T02:49:00.004+08:00

1. last week was deepavali...my class was off from the friday till tuesday. It's 5 days off! and i'm here, stranded at the hostel!! can't believe isn't it? me neither....haha..usually, when it comes to holiday, me and senah were the first person will 'cabut balik' haha...lepas je kelas terus lompat naik bas balik...hehe but this time around we just stayed at the hostel with the hope and desired to finish all the 'tertunggak' homework yg bertimbung! finally, it's still not been finish until just now. i've just finished editing my research proposal! hahaha... [gimme a clap!] feel a bit relief..but my chapter 2 [literature review] feel like out of mind pun ade..haha...whatever...as long as i finished it! hahaha....

2. due to the holiday, my roomate asked me and senah if we would like to join a tv show recording with Dr. Fadzilah Kamsah [yes! the famous psychologist 2]...senah was excited thinking that she will be in the tv at last. hahaha. We've been there on friday morning and shoot 3 episodes of the show title 'Making a Difference'. honestly speaking, it is a good show with lots of knowledge n tips..but the way it's been carried out was so bored! Aigoo...i'm just awake when he interviewed the first panel..the rest is history! [there're 3 panel all together]hahaha..by the way this show will be air next year at 6am in the morning! haha...my sleepiness may be suit the time of the program shown. hahaha.....

3. this sem, i realise that i'm become more busy. with the assignments of cuz..cannot be denied. but then..there's Residen Sport Day...we [include senah,wani & zati] were 'gatal-gatal' volunteer to help the organisation to make the day come true! haha..it was full of meeting and the day of the program is tomorrow! i hope it went well and i'm sure we're will been half dead of tiredness! ahahaha...Not enough with that, we also 'gatal tangan again' applying for the convocation festival @ feskonisel 09 secretariat under the Publicity bureau!...haha..the nightmare starts! haha...this Feskonisel 09 will be held next week due to our 4th Unisel Convocation Day...hope it's all been moved smoothly as planned.

4. My fave boy bands are going to release their album!!! Yes...boy band[s] with the 'S'. Aigooo... quiet excited and trilled to hear their new songs. Since SS501 already release the album, 'Rebirth' for last 2 days ago, i've manage to hear the preview of the album and it is breath-taking +tremendous+amazing!! Their new single, 'Love Like This' is very catchy and sound fresh! haha can't wait for the comeback on clip video guys [oppa sunbae!sarangheeee!! ahahha] As for Westlife, after a year of holiday from recording and tour, they also appear with their 7th studio album, 'Where We Are'!! my long live boy band since school haha....but the frustrating part is, they still have covers in this album even before that Shane several times mention in the interview that there will be no cover at all! guys...what's happen! the new single will be the cover version of Daughtry song 'What About Now'. i miss your own songs lads! still will looking forward to have it...hehe lastly, my Lifehouse band! haha..releasing the 'Smoke & Mirror', it also a brand new album after the previous one last year. Listen to the voice of Jason Wade again made me eager to hear other songs too!! haha the single 'Halfway Gone' really fulfill my expectation...! can't wait to get the whole album!! haha.....

4. i'm coming towards the end, i still hope all my assignments and presentations will fastly move away! hahaha still lots to be settled. looks like the holiday and the homework never works together. hahaha....plus! all my friends from other uni will be facing final exam and of cuz will be on holiday early compared to mine! waaa...not fair!! haha...jealous! but..gud luck guys! ti kite plan dasyat2 ek mase cuti? hahahaha

p/s: i think i'm goin to broke again next month! haha...[hope not!]

looking forward for this....

2009-10-22T02:30:00.006+08:00

SS501
album: Rebirth
Single: Love Like This
Release: 20 Oct 2009

Westlife
Album: Where We Are
Single: What About Now
Release: 30th November 2009

Lifehouse
Album: Smoke & Mirror
Single: Halfway Gone
Release: 8th December 2009

p/s: what does this mean? hahaha....

Pergi tak kembali....Al-fatihah...

2009-10-07T20:23:00.008+08:00

today is really unsuspecting day to grieve....

3.06 pm this evening, i received a sms from my brother, Kero

"toki xde dah....br je tadi.."

i was surprised!! but not numb..sad but not sorrow....
i still can laugh at the class, makes jokes, no true feeling is out...
and even asked Madi why i don't feel the feeling!
maybe i already 'redha' for his leaving..
maybe this is for his own good and Allah loves him more and wants him
to stop suffering for everything have been done to him..

Deep down inside...i have sympathy for him..i really hope
he's been blessed and may rest in peace..
i also hope people who have been using him to stop fighting n arguing
bout the world!! i hate them very much!!

toki...
6th October 2007 was nenek,
7th October 2009 was urs,
i have nothing left to say....
Al-fatihah......='(

in memory..

...raya 2007...

p/s: when writing this, Azmir sms said "toki br siap simpan...imam tgh bace talkin"
and i could feel something blurry.....
(people come n go..n when the time come it also would be mine...am i already prepared for that?)

quick update! hehe...

2009-10-07T01:50:00.006+08:00

i've just realised that actually i have lots in mind to share, but too lazy to write OR thoughts that keep playing in mind cannot be elaborated as one whole entry due to lack of infos OR it can, but depends to certain topics......haha so i think i'm gonna change the way i wrote this blog before. Just upload what's on your mind been hovered to; short,long, a few, little, many; all...just put it together. Can meh?? hehe......

1. my Oppa Sunbae is back (!!! *excited*) from his public isolation. This is the first glance of him after his recovery from H1N1, 3 weeks back i guessed. Thought the recovering mode would be until end of this month but he's and other boys (SS501) were participating in Korea China Relationship Concert in China just now. He still looks weak but comfortable in figure. Handsome + cool OPPA! hurry for more action!..hehe

2. "Do you really have to be like 'half naked' just to attend faculty Hari Raya celebration??" This is my thought with Senah when we saw, 2 girls wearing a 'nipis + jarang' baju kebaya with sarong + the other one was wearing a short sarong like with an intention to show her nice long white legs without bulu to public as we're on the way back from literature class tonight. "Look at us guys! Hot chicks here!" What a lame attention la girls...but sure works..who knows! ngee````

3. i don't know what all of you think, but i think bathroom is the room where i recall n create new ideas! hahaha.. Lots of things pop up through my head, jumping & jumping but as i sit back and write this entry, only the 2 point above is out to write! grrrr!

4. tones of assignment are also queuing up. Most of it need to be submitted next week. Overall, 3 lesson plan + one research proposal + one bigbook to design = countless time needed!! Remembered a dialogue from our group discussion this morning while discussing one of the assignment. Senah said, "Nie kite duk bincang assignments lecturer lain, skali datang Zarihan (our lecturer for teching writing subject) esok terus bagi assignment baru + nak minggu depan + kene present!" The truth is, Zarihah did leave a note to our class rep. bout the assignment need to be done tomorrow and the class is cancelled! " Lecturers lain bukan main lagi Q bagi assignment + suh submit bile2 yg ok...dtg je Zarihan terus potong Q n submit cepat..terpakse tgl keje lain buat keje die...adoila" bebel Senah
lagi lepas tue...hahahaha nasib la nah oiii.=)

5. this month, October..Yes October! is going to be my broke month! Today's only 6th October and my 'elaun' already quarter left! Giler! tue la...ikut nafsu lagi...Things that's been desired is more dangerous to be admire off compared to things that are needed to buy in the 1st place. Obviously, i already bought something that're been desired to own first and the conclusion is? 'I'm Broke!'. Abah! Help your daughter here......hehehe =)

6. i have new interest in posting new vocabs or words or saying or quote or wat so ever that can be related to those...hahaha You know sometimes you just have your favorite words of the day. As for me, my word for today come across when i watched "The Mentalist" tv show this evening. It's like the trademark of the story to start with this word when its begun, complete with defination + phonetic symbols + explanation = MENTALIST

MENTALIST

/ 'men-tə-list/ (noun)

someone who uses mental ability, hypnosis and/or suggestion.
a master manipulator of thoughts and behaviour.

i think that's all for tonight..and i also realised, it is not a quick update! haha....

there he is with the black cap..always looking down, walking @ Icheon airport
when departuring for China....hehe =)

p/s: assignments + all works!! here i come!!! hahahaha i have to start managing my works if not somebody said i'm not matured if i failed to do so!...LOL

hikayat Raya 2009...

2009-10-01T15:53:00.015+08:00

wah....nie raye ke brape baru nak buat entri pasal nie? haha
mood xde le weh! dalam kepale nie ade je nak post tapi...
kemalasan lagi kuat melanda! haha...
by the way..nie adalah gambar2 sepanjang raye 2009 yang:

happening!!
superb..besh!
create its own story n history...
last as a student n last dapat duit raye!! hukhuk...
ingat sampai bile2 la....haha

a picture worth a thousand of words..but nie ade byk gambar nie...interpret la ye...haha

Raya Pertama:

raya ngan family+sdare mare+spupu spapat...hehe
jalan rumah toki+nekma, selebehnye lepak rumah! haha

Raya Ke Dua & Ke Tiga:

Raya ke-2: open house rmh faten, but since G-22 x cukup org..not many photos taken!
Raye ke-3: mase nih mmg berjalan x igt alam! start dgn my home, proceed to others houses (frens n seniors houses). of cuz mase nieh mkn byk gile!!! =) weee...muke pun makin bulat! haha

then, ptg tue dapat jemputan untuk Pre-reunion for our batch!! SMKAKA 01-05.. BBQ di rumah safwan sebagai tuan rumah. Ramai yang hadir. Jumpe la balik budak2 nie yg last skali agaknye jumpe 2 or 3 years back... (excited!)

:::the girls:::

:::the boys:::

Raye ke Lima:

haha tour time AGAIN!
kali nie raye di kerteh rumah Ain, since this year she's coming back to Malaysia for raya!
of cuz lots of photos taken. cannot change the facts that my girls are the cam manic!! haahaha

Raye ke Enam:

around 230pm got an emergency invitation from C-kem to join him n Ammar to Hisham's wedding. haha never thought 5 all us would be going together since all this while we're only contacting online haha...hisham nie geng C-kem n Ammar..merangkap senior kt skolah dulu la...igtkan mcm ade segan2, tp gempak gile duk pok pek2 dalam kete bercakap..haha 2 baru 5 org..haha

finish with the wedding, C-kem suggested for a 'lepak' at the beach...haha..vroom3...again..!
haha....bergossip+makan kepok=heaven!
cam manic-ing at the beach smpai x igt dunie! hehe

sekian....raye ke7 dah on day balik U balik...hehe..though, i think this is the best Raya so far, with the gathering with ex-schoolmates+ meet old friends + and also unsuspecting meeting with the 'two gays' really make up this raye! hahaha...

p/s: still..epi2 jugak...jgn lupe pade yg tiade...huhuhu....
: selamat hari raye! Jom pose 6 + ganti pose plak! hehe

Ragam kami di bulan Ramadhan...=)

2009-09-16T04:06:00.019+08:00

this post is really fully credited to skunk senn!!!!!! hahahah =)
thanks for posting n now i'm ciplak-ing..haha

Kepada my lovely housemate j4-2f…ini adalah sebahagian ragam kita ber-6 yg sempat dirakam oleh saya yaaaaa..sila jgn tuntut royolti dr aku huhuhu nama2 insan2 tertentu juga tidak dmentionkan untuk kesejahteraan sejagat…

Situation 1:

kisah mengenai si A yg pening memikir ttng kisah cinta sampai syurganya…dan 3 bersedara iaitu si S, si ML dan si I merumitkan lagi hikayat cinta smpai syurganya..huhuhu…pada satu malam yg hening si A telah di paksa berfikir tentang jodoh sampai syurganya oleh 3 rakan nye ini ketika perjalanan pulang dr OU(stelah puas berbuka puasa mencekik karipap dkt IKEA & shppng rayer dkt padini)….separuh perjalanan beliau terasa perut memulas-mulas, lalu berhenti lah kami di stesen minyak terpilih utk mebenarkan beliau memlunaskan hajat dihati..setelah puas menunaikan hajat..beliau kembali ke dalam kereta dan kami memulakan kembali perjalanan yg terhenti seketika itu..tetapi tahukah anda apa ayat yg telah keluar dr mulut beliau?? ….nie adalah kata-kata si A “hmm time membuang td,aku dah pikiq molek2 dah..antara si a dan si m ”….dan tahukah anda kami bertiga gelak guling bagaikan nak mati..lalu keluar pertanyaan nie dr mulut si S “wehhh hang pikiq pasai jodoh ang time dok berak dlm tandas ka weh ??? lalu bergema lah kembali ‘hahahahahhahahaaahhahahahahahhah’ dr kami bertiga….dan beliau terus-terusan mjadi mangsa gelak ketawa kami bertiga hahahaha

Situation 2:

ada 3 org budak si ML, si S, dan si W yg mane terigin sgt nak main mercun yg ekstrem…dpendekkan cerita Si I meninggalkan harta karun beliau yg mane merupakan stok mercun bola & botol dlm loker bj..lalu 3 bersedara nie mula merancang utk membinasakan mercun tersebut..setelah penat memikir, akhir mereka memilih strategis 3-3-1 iaitu mbaling mercun tersebut ke bawah blok melalui tgkp dapur yg bertentangan dgn guard house(misi membalas dendam kpda guard yg sllu marah2)...setelah berbincang segala strategi, si S bertugas memasang lighter, si ML sebagai tukang lempar mercun dan Si W sbgai mata-mata yg merakamkan tndkn balas para mak guard dan mak guard…lalu si ML pun m’lempar mercun..dan zupppp bommmmmmmmm…tapi tahukah anda apa yg dilakukan oleh 3 sahabat nie??Mereka telah lari lintang pukang kearah ruang tamu smbil meneriap di lantai ala2 bom nak meletup dlm umah mereka..hahahhahahahahha… lalu si A pun berkata “cesssss nak main mercun tp seekoq2 penakut nak mampus hahahahha”

Situation 3 :

mengenai si W yg merupakan org berjawatan yg perlu melaksana tugas2 tertentu ketika bulan pose..pada ari ahad si W telah berkawad di tgh panas di hadapan pak menteri..kemudiannya pada ari isnin beliau ditugaskan melekat memo di setiap kluster asrama berkaitan aktiviti persatuannya..lalu apabila si W pulang ke umah beliau amat penat..si S ketika hendak ke kls terlihat si W sdng lena tido..mgkin kerana penat...tapi tahukah anda ?apabila si S pulang ke umah selepas kls..para prebet, si ML dan si I telah melaporkan bahawa si W telah membuka puasa..si ML melaporkan si W telah mgunakan ayat2 sperti ini.. ‘rase tak larat sgt nie, cm nak pengsan..nak buka puasa laa...nak pengsan...(smbl ala2 nak guling pengsan huhu)’ lalu terus si W membuka puasa dgn membaham maggi di hadapan si ML..si ML berasa sgt sedih kerena pd ari tersebut beliau telah dkelilingi oleh manusia2 tdk puasa iaitu si I(mrangkap rumate nye) dan si W.

Situation 4 :

pd suatu mlm yg happening sbb esok nak blik kg ..si ML, si S bersama anggota baru si I dsebabkan si W yg berjawatan telah meninggalkan kami berdua yg chumel utk berbuka puasa ngan pak menteri...lalu aktiviti malam kami bermula..bermotif mercun bola dan mercun botol. Kami berhajat mengegarkan guard house..hahahah..tetapi tahukah anda ? si ML telah mensabotaj cubaan pertama kami dan si I sbagai pembekal harta karun mula menyumpah2...strategi pd malam nie ada mercun berirama duet antara si ML dan si S, dan si I memasang lighter..tiba saat pelepasan..sumbu mercun si S telah pun dlancarkan tetapi mercun si ML jugak telah dilepaskan bersama2 tanpa dinyalakan sumbunya...bommmmmmmm....si S masih menantikan bommmmmmm kedua..lalu dier bertanya ‘ ML asal bunyi satu aja ??? mane satu lagi ? ‘ si ML dgn angkuhnya mjawab ‘ aku baling mercun yg tak nyala lagi huhuhuhu‘ si I dan si S hampir pitam mimikirkan kerugian yg d’alami...lalu bergema la ketawa penghuni j4-2f nie kembali..si A dan si C trus gelak2 guling bersama2 si S, si I, dan si ML yg ‘budiman’.....

Situation 5 :
akibat terlalu ngidam roti pisang di alif firdaus restauran..si S telah mgajak rakan2 nya untuk menjamu selera dicana...dpendekkan cerita ketika sedang melangkah ke parking park..4 bersedara iaitu si ML, si A, si I dan si S bercerita mengenai mercun..tahukah anda apa yg telah terjadi ??tiba2 kedengaran sore insan ke-5 mencelah... ‘ ehhh engkau jual mercun erkkk ??? kemudian muncul lah kelibat sorg jejaka yg agak rupawan...huhuhu..si I telah pun ketaq perut kerana menyangka lelaki itu bersedara ngan polis, pihak hep atau pak guard...jejaka itu kelihatan sgt gersang untuk bermain mercun..beliau kelihatan begitu mgidam dan telah memujuk kami untuk tlg membelikan mercun dr pembekal si I..si I merasa serba salah kerana beliau cuba untuk merahsiakan identiti pembekal berdaulat beliau...setelah dpujuk berulang kali dengan sore yg sgt pilu, 4 bersedara setuju utk mbantu melunaskan rindu dendam jejaka tersebut terhadap mercun..lalu jejaka itu pun berkata ‘ cmnie aku bg korunk 5 iggit tlg beli mercun bola k ‘ tetapi tahukah anda jejaka yg rupawan itu hanya mempunyai 3 iggit aja di dlm poket seluarnya (moral of story muka nsem, poket tak smstinya nsem jgk k)

Sekian dahulu hikayat kami 6 bersedara..egat tak dlm entri sblm nie aku ada mention hope nie ramadan terakhir aku yg myeronok di unisel ??yesss ia mmg myeronokkan...saya jugak merasakan mercun tidak perlu dharamkan, kerana secara lahiriahnya ia telah merapatkan hub.silaturahim di’antara umat-umat manusia dlm melakukan kejahatan sejagat secara berkumpulan hahaha...

p/s : dlm umah j4-2f nie si C (merangkap rumate si S) adalah yg plng baik...haha xde masalah sepanjang pose nie...senyum memanjang je...hahaha

p/s: hahaha.....will never forget this memory lol...haha...this is our last time celebrating Ramadhan n Syawal together as a university students..lepas nih masing-masing dh berterabur 'tanam anggur' (maybe) kt kampung masing-masing....ahahahaha

SELAMAT HARI RAYE AIDILFITRI!! MAAF ZAHIR BATIN....

oooooo balik kampung...oooo balik kampung... hati girang..!!!! =)

i hate my English!

2009-09-11T02:43:00.005+08:00

Lately...no!..now days i start noticing my English become more worst! how worst is that? i also don't know how to say but you can feel it right a way. most important part is i failed to make people understand what am i saying...meaning, every time i tried to explain something, especially in class the meaning just not there...it's like you 'pusing-pusing' at the same spot and at the end they didn't make sense of what i am saying...how's bad is that? i think it's really bad!!!!....i know the answer but when i speak up, the words just tremble and fly away out of now where...and sometimes i even lost the words! serious! no joking! is that a sign of short term memory or what? sigh....or is it my oral anxiety risen these days? but due to what?..that's why i hate my English! i think i can't convey the message well when i speak and when writing i keep repeating the same words. this is also leads to the second problem, lack of vocabulary! the words is not there when i need them....sometimes people just used a word to explain everything instead me, using these long sentences just to make sense in something! I hate it...really hate it!!! i really jealous with some of my blogger friends who can express themselves very much with this colonial language in their entries!

Any space to improve?

Yes! please teleport me to the native speaker country of English! I'm begging you! let me dried up there try to speak perfect English rather then dried up here hoping when will i get the competency! demand isn't it? huh!

i hate my english...but i love the language..!

p/s: cam mane le nak ajar orang lain kalu sdri pun 'kok kak...bertatih lagi bercakap!'
p/s: adoring Henry Golding slang from 8tv Quickeee.!! =)

Hankering for Oppa Sunbae(s)

2009-09-04T08:13:00.020+08:00

Don't know where to start...but every story should has a start no matter what....and ends with an end whether it is a happy ending or the sad one...try to accept both...so this is my story for yesterday misery and uncertainty feeling that i feel right now.....

It's all started on the 1 Sept morning, when i just arrived at my 'sweet' bedroom at the hostel from a long journey back from my home town. As always, after settling down everything, i went online and searching for usual stuffs like facebook-ing,checking this blog dashboard to see if there is any hot or buzzing news around me. And it is a buzzing or even an extravaganza+shocking news waiting as i can see clearly from the blog that i followed stated......

"SS501 is going to Malaysia for the fan meeting!!!"
"They already landed this morning!!"

(ads@ the hotel)

i was like...are you freaking serious????? just for a night or approximately 5 hours journey in the bus and suddenly this news come out of nowhere!! i was like....OMG...OMG...OMG...!!!! Are they serious??? rase macam nok nangeh!! i start googling for more information and it's confirm that they already been here!!! oh..still don't know what to expect!! and start to spread the news to Senah, Wani and Zati.....Oppa Sunbae(s) is coming!! the person who i never imagine would show in this limit of time..! they were here for their DVD photoshoot and also MV for their latest album. Not enough with that...i started to plan a trip to see them... searching for peoples to count in my hunting and stalking my oppa sunbae(s) since the location for the fan meeting is only 30-40 minutes for where i am now...so what a waste to let the biggest+ opportunity just like that..Wani, Zati and Senah already agreed to join in. Then, Pel,Ju,Nadia and Nabila also interested in excorting me tooo...Pel said she never see me exited like this (before this i only crazy over westlife n planning to ambush them if they come but then suddenly the SS501's comin!) ..n Ju added that i was like someboday else! talking n explaining to them in particularly details bout tomorrow event like i'm the mad fan who get so aroused with that news...! hahaha.. of cuz i was! ahaha

3rd Sept 2009....

Last night, wani told me that she can't join us for the stalking due to overload of assignments plus group discussion that never end...but she promise to lend her car for us... (oh gosh! how could i thanked her for the believe she put in me by giving the key! thanks gal! i will remember ur support!).

After the class finished @1230pm...i'm too eager to go home n prepare..but we have to wait for Zati to end her class at 4 since she will be the photographer that evening...Sharp at 415pm, we're heading towards One Utama...i felt everything seems to move soo slow as i driving the car plus the road was quite busy with people who just come back from work...luckily there's no jam... 515pm...we arrived at the One World Hotel,parked the cars (forget to mention that we're going with 2 cars, Pel is driving the other one) and looking for the place the meeting will be held..once the lift open...i can heard the loud scream + noise from the fans. i felt insecured and when i saw the lines....i felt like! oh!!! where are these people coming from!!!! lots of triple S were there!! and the queue was unbelieveable out of mind! I was like..."okeeyyyy..." the hope is gone!!! i heard the security said the first group of fans arrived there @630am!!!! just for the queuing!! at last, there's someone else that are more fanatic then me!! hahahahaha......

So the wrong decisions started to take place! we decided that we're not going to Q up after seeing the lines (1st mistake!!)Hence, we just hovering around the hotel waiting for any lucky people to pass us the 'all access passes' maybe, or hoping to bump onto the boys at the lobby and bla..bla..bla.. wat a hypothesis that doesn't have any solid conclusion! haha....boring waiting....we take pictures and also meet some new friends+fans just like us hovering around for the luck!......but at the end...we went to the meeting spot again and saw that the fans had started moving toward the conference room for the signing.!! waaa...i was hopeless....i should meet one of my online friend, Keisu who also been there a bit earlier than me..and this is also the first face to face meeting for both of us since before this, we're only contacting through ym...i can't even spotted her around almost two thousand fans there...the place was soo pack...!!

-crazily taking pictures while bored waiting-
-plus...we're making new friends! hehe-

-introducing: SS501!!!-
above(from left): Jung Min,SS501,Young Saeng
below: Hyung Joon,Hyun Joong (leader), Kyu Ming

-photos@the fan signing-
-Jung Min even left a drawing for us as souvenir..hehe nice Jung Min!-

At the end...we just waiting outside the glass door and hoping the boys will come out and waved for us....of cuz... that's just a dream..because they never did!!!!...lots and lots of fans coming out screaming with joy and tears...i was like?? waaaaa....! nok nangeh! haha....but then...we're really feel like giving up beside it's already 7pm....the Q was still long to go...bored with waiting and seeing happy people coming out from inside...we go to find some place to cool down...but when we're back..the line become amazingly shorter...like a quarter@1/20 to go..my hope was shining again plus i also felt stupid not to just queuing up in the first place!..i decide that i want to wait till all this end! and nabila willingly to stay there with me as the others will go bukak puase first @ Ikea and it will be our meeting point there. As i wait n wait..,i msg keisu up and she said she's already out with my OPPA SUNBAE, Hyun Joong autograph!! oh gosh....i still in the line with nabila..n suddenly the guards that show a "T" sign means it's over!!!!!! they even lied said that the boys already left to KLIA as their flight to Korea will be on 1145pm.. how dare you lied!!!! i finally get to meet keisu there, and she's so small!! haha...can't even imagine she actually that thin n small haha...she's also very excited showing me the autograph and told me that oppa is really hensem face to face! so far..she manage to get two autograph..one is of cuz the hyun joong oppa..and the other bandmate, Young Saeng.

-tak jumpe yg real...gmbr pun jdla..hahaha-
-keisu,me and nabila...-

After talking+hooping for the amazing stories+taking pictures with her...i finally realise that there's no hope at all and finally decided to join the others at ikea...and the 2nd wrong decision take place! y??...half and hour later...keisu sms me said that she saw the boys going out from the hotel lobby and left for KLIA...waaaaaa if i wait a little bit more..!! From the forum and fan stories,they can see the boys freely at the KLIA!!!Actually,the KLIA thing was already in our plan...if we can't meet the boys at the hotel..we will drive there to catch them. And that's the 3rd wrong decision i've made!i don't know y i have no luck at all that day!

1145pm..the boys already departure to Icheon while i'm grieving in the cinema thinking.."is this a karma???"

the pathetic+frustrated+loyal+crazy+fanatic ( will reach the level soon)
= "kipas susah mati"

-thanks girls for the support n company!-
-lain kali kite wak lagi ek? ahaha-
-more xtreme next time..ehehe-

A special n billion n zillion thanks to my girls!! Yes! all of you! start from Wani for let me drive her car, Zati for willingly be a photographer that day..and of course...the morals support from Senah, Pearl,Nadia,Aliya and Nabila! thanks for the company! this trip would never happen with joys if there's no people like you around me that time. We've tried everything....we've made an effort to come and stuff...but if there's no fate n chance to meet, there's nothing we can do....huhuh...

p/s:SS501 oppa sunbae(s)...Ddo bowayo =).....see you at the upcoming concert!!!!

p/s: i wonder next time, how am i going to get the all access pass or media pass..or anything la! hahaha better make a trick n plans now...haha

p/s: i'm heartbroke! =(

some photos credit to:
-the huntress
(4huntress.blogspot.com)
-triple S Malaysia
(triplesmalaysia.blogspot.com)

tips kejut sahur....=)

2009-08-21T19:59:00.002+08:00

Since pagi esok first bangun sahur, confirm ade yang liat nak bgun kan? haha..nih ak share tips ak jumpe kt sini untuk kejutkan member-member yang ade sejarah liat nak bangun nie...hehehe

Kalau nak kejutkan orang bangun tidur especially sahur..cam ni antara caranya..

1. pegang anak jari kiri/kanan sambil tu panggil nama dia perlahan lahan...

2. sentuh bahu org tidur tu..dan goyangkan perlahan lahan..sambil panggil nama dia...

3. renjis air kat muka dia...sambil panggil nama dia...

4. tampar tampar manja pipi dia..sambil panggil nama dia...

5. tutup kipas/air cond

tapi kalau still tak ada respon jgak buat camnih...

1. jerit nama dia kuat kuat...

2. gigit ibu jari kaki dia..cam hantu toyol gigit

3. simbah air sebaldi...kalau boleh air rendam baju dalam korang

4. tarik rambut dia sampai jatuh dari tilam

5. goyang badan dia kuat2 then jerit gempa bumi gempabumi! tsunami!tsunami!

6. jerit api! api! api!

7. letak kfc ke mcd ke xpun ikan patin masak tempoyak yg baru dibeli sebelah hidung dia..bgi ambik bau sikit

still gak tak ada respon buwat camnih...

1. pergi kat telinga dia...then sebut maa rabbuka! sambil seru nama dia byk kali...

2. pergi kat dia, baca je surah yaa sin....

tapi kalau still tak ada respon jgak...ni je la cara terakhir

1. panggil je orang masjid/surau untuk uruskan...kerana tuhan lebih menyayanginya. ...

p/s: skali..ngan aku2 yang tak bangun nye! hehehe....ya ampun! =)

Salam Ramadhan....

2009-08-21T19:16:00.006+08:00

Salam Ramadhan kepada:

family (abah, mami,kero,azmir,azrie,azeem) haha
kawan-kawan
followers
viewers
stalkers
dan semua umat Islam......

May this blessing Ramadhan will give a full gratitude for all of us...=)

p/s: kalu pose - sembahyang= x gune jugak...hehe balance la ek?
Jom g terawikh?

kisah 3 sekawan...

2009-08-20T00:58:00.005+08:00

Ni adalah kisah 3 sekawan A, B, C mase minggu MTS ari tue.....(posting pasal MTS lagi sebab memori pasal mende tue belum lagi reda....hahaha nasib la kan....) ape yg terjadi hanye sebagai kongsian cerite from a fren to a fren of mine....hahahahaha

Pada suatu pagi, selepas habis post-mortem pada pukul 2 pagi....tetibe

A: Wei....jom g Alif Firdaus (restoran mamak) makan roti canai? lapo la plak pagi-pagi nie...
C: Siusss ar wei....!! ko tau x jam kul bape?
B: Jom! xde hal...ak on je... (die on sbb die driver..)
C: Jangan main-main weh, esok dah la kne turun tgk budak junior buat aktiviti...
A: haha...elek ar..esk bukan ade ape-ape pun, biro ak esok lepak + standby dalam OR je...hehe
B: a'ah...biro kite pun sekadar kene jenguk-jenguk org buat activity je... (B & C berade dlm biro yg same)
C: ske ati korang la..... (separuh redho dlm ati nie...) waaa...tlg2...ak dipakse untuk ikut!!
A&B: hahaha...lantak ko le....

Perjalanan diteruskan ke Pekan BB yang agak sunyi pade pukul 2 pagi itu....suddenly..

B: Jom kite gi cari McD ar...haha ngidam la plok..
A: wahhhh...ak on je!!
C: waaaaaaa...wei..logik sket weh!! sius la..!!
B: Sius la nie...ahaha ak semangat dah nie..
A: ak x kisah..ikut driver...
C:Hampeh...!!! tlg!! ak dipakse lagi!!
B: hahahaha....

B pun memandu dengan berhemahnye pada permulaan perjalanan...hala tuju mereka bertiga adalah McD sebelah Ikea Mutiara Damansara...C duduk sebelah B, kononye teman B driving..manekale A, dah lame mendapat sentuhan kecundang di belakang! (mmg xleh blah!! haha)

Jalan punye jalan, pusing punye pusing...sampaila 3 sekawan nie kt Ikea..tp McD tak kelihatan! Rupenye McD tue tgh renovate! mereka ber3 sgtla blurr + putus fius dgn ape yg perlu di buat...xkan nak patah balik..jam dh menunjukkan pukul 3.15 pagi....jauh tue nak patah balik...tetibe C dpt idea nak tepon kawan die yg slalu menjadikan kawasan OU tue sebagai 'taman permainan' beliau....

tooot...tooot...tooott...
C: Elo M!!! tdo dh ke? haha wei..mane lagi ade McD dekat-dekat dgn OU nie?
M: owh....ade sebijik lagi lepas terowong...bla..bla..bla...knal x?
C: owh! knal2....on da way nie...hehe

Pusing punye pusing lagi, jumpela McD yang dimaksudkan...dengan muke lapo kedarah..mereka ber3 meng'order' spicy chiken mcdeluxe dan 2 set counter pounder....
sambil makan...sambil la mereka membuka cerita tentang post-mortem tadi + ade la ngumpat + gossip ape yang patut..hehe

nak dijadikan cerite mase on da way balik, mase tue dah pukul 4 pagi....B telah membawa kereta dengan steadynye....tiba-tibe....

C: B!!!!!!
(menjerit sbb kete tetibe 'weng' ketepi secare tibe-tibe)
B: ye...!! hehe..
C: weh...kalu ko ngantuk ckp!! bagi ak bawak..
B: xdela..ok je nieh...
C: ok ape nye!! ak tgk mate ko ttp td!!!
(gilenye B..bleh lagi cover)
B: ok...ok...
C: Pasangla laju fave ko tu...nyanyi ikut lagu tue...

B pun pasang la lagu fave die...sambil menyanyi ikut lirik, irama, tempo n sume la! tapi makin lame makin perlahan....

C: B!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ngek la ko!!!
(kete 'weng' sekali lagi!)
B: hehehe...ak ok lagi la....
C: brentila...tukar plak!!! Jgn cari pasal!
B: yela...ak brenti...

kereta pun dihentikan dan driver bertukar....C meneruskan role nye sbagai driver baru..mesti korang tertanye-tanye mane pgnye A kan? kalu nak tau, menurut cite a fren to a fren of mine tue, A telah lena dengan selena-lenanye di belakang! adoi..... (A...A..napela jd g2...) tapi..menurut interview dengan A, di kate die sedar mase kejadian berlaku,tp mls nak kecoh takut jd havoc..hehe

mase bawak kete tue, C pun dah ade aura-aura mengantuk die, terpaksela die melalak dalam kete, mengikut lagu dalam radio untuk mengelakkan kete jadi 'weng' mcm B bawak....dan die mmg sgt berdoa agr cepat je smpai....
akhirnye...mereka selamat sampai pada pukul 5 pagi, pade mase tue biro disiplin sedang sibuk meng'hambat' budak-budak junior ke masjid untuk subuh jemaah...Lepas aje parking,

A: Uih....cepat nye smpai... (tetibe bangun...)
B: hahaha...tgkla sape yg bawak
C: Cepat apenye...!! spruh mati ak bwk kete sbb ngantuk!

3 sekwan itu pun terus lena dlm kete sementara tunggu biro disiplin blah....kang x pasal-pasal kne tindakan.....hahahahaha...
itulah cerite yang disampaikan oleh a fren to a fren of mine...

moral of the story?

1. jgn overnight kalu dh tau tido tue x cukup (yela...letih mts x hbs lagi,g cr penat lain)
2. kawal nafsu makan tue dengan baik! nie x..nafsu beso sgt smpai nok mkn McD pagi-pagi bute..
3. mujurla xde ape2 berlaku...kalu x..mesti cite nie x smpai kt ak..hahaha
4. ........................................ (korang tmbahla sdri ek?) haha

(gambar ini adalah tampalan semate-mate...xde kene mengene dgn yang ad + yg dh xde..hehehe)

p/s: serik!!!....hehehe =)

MTS: It's Over...

2009-08-14T23:49:00.012+08:00

Semalam berakhirnya secara rasmi program Minggu Tekad Siswa(MTS) untuk pelajar-pelajar junior dengan aktiviti terakhirnya iaitu Malam MTS yang bertemakan multicultural society (agknyela...dh lupe exact theme). Sejak mendaftarkan diri pada 4/8/2009 di Unisel hingga la semalam 14/8/2009, terase mase itu terlalu sekejap berlalu, mungkin disebabkan kesibukkan dalam memastikan program berjalan lancar menjadi faktor sampai tak sedar yang aku and the geng dah bermaustatin kat Unisel lebih dari 2 minggu, jauh meninggalkan cuti sem yang sepatutnye dihabiskan kat rumah hehe..

Ape pun of cuz la byk pengalaman baru,pahit, manis dan duka (menyampah) yang dapat di kutip sepanjang minggu program hahaha. Bermula daripada kursus induksi untuk kami selama 2 hari 1 malam, kepada perancangan master plan setiap biro untuk pengisian program selama 3 hari dan juga pada minggu perlaksanaan yang bermula pada hari pendaftaran pelajar junior. Ditempatkan di biro pendaftaran, aku agak ada jugak kelebihan yang dapat dikutip untuk dijadikan pengalaman idop nie. Mungkin lepas ni bleh la hantar resume dengan meletakkan pengalaman bekerja di Bank Islam (dengan men'distribute'kan bank slip di kaunter cash..haha) takpun pernah bekerja sebagai costumer service..(sebagai penunjuk arah flow dlm dewan..haha). Namun, tugas tetap tugas, whether you enjoy with it..or you just leave it, it's up to you...at the end, you will find the true bless in what you're doing.

Kalu bab tak cukup tido tue rasenye lumrah la....pukul 2, 3 pagi baru balik..then esoknye pkul 8 @ 9 pagi dah ade meeting (wah3...pandai doh sebut perkataan meeting lerning...haha) rase macam robot pun ade..tdo dan bgn dengan sendirinye macam sudah ade ketetapan yang wajib untuk dilakukan + ad jgk rase nak gile...hahaha...tp small matter la tue...sebabnye..ari nih kepale otak aku masih waras...hahaha kalu dengan biro aku sendiri plak, dari pagi smpai petang terlibat dengan pendaftaran pelajar junior(2 hari pertama)+senior(3 hari terakhir)...kire nak skodeng tue bolehla + krem kaki,urat saraf,otot2 sbb duk berdiri jerk!..haha tp bile bab bekerja dengan pihak pentadbiran nie..kite dapat tgk mcm mane perangai each department tue bekerja (tp totally nye hampeh!) Mungkin dengan flow bru dengan meletakkan kaunter bendahari n unit record together-gather bleh meningkatkan comunication between both office yang selame nih bleh di lihat semcam ade hugh barrier for them to communicate which ak sdri pun x paham cmne la bleh jadi g2...yang susah nye nanti students sndri jugak...hohoho itu pun masih lagi ade banyak masalah birokrasi dalam dewan tue + kaunter jananiaga (secare gediknye!) nak jugak menyibok duk dlm dewan tue. (as you can see la kan bile daftar...hohoho)

Semester nie, bleh kate 80% facilitator dalam MTS adalah muke baru. mula-mulenye 20% muke lame itu sgt bimbang dengan kemunculan muke-muke baru nie untuk menggerakkan program. Ye ar...newbie beb...satu habuk pun x tau...and 'veteren-veteren' nie mmg sgt gelisahla dengan pemilihan yang di buat oleh HEP 'terchenta' dengan meletakkan muke2 baru..kepercayaan yg sgt minimum diberikan sgtla overwhelming! pergh! kalu x bg peluang mane la nak dpt pengalaman kan? tp kami newbie-newbie baru ni dapat memberikan performance yang mantap dari segi perancangan dan perlaksanaan skaligus menutup mulut dan meraih kembali kepercayaan veteran-veteran dalam MTS itu sendiri. Maybe adela satu due masalah yang happen, tp mane ade sume bende perfect? ekekeke...deal with it je la...then br la bleh tau yang diri sendiri tue sebenarnye fleksible enough tak untuk deal dengan pop-up problems with great solution on the spot hahahaha wat to expect? expect the unexpected of cuz! haha...ape yang ak dpt tgk kali nie..pengisian program byk kepade briefing sane sini, kurang penglibatan activities yang mungkin perlu untuk pelajar ikut..(cian biro xtivt reka byk games utk bdk2 nie...xtau x sempat hbskan semue ke x.) Tapi, yang paling penting adalah mengubah persepsi pelajar-pelajar baru itu sendiri terhadap minggu orientasi. Berikan satu mindset yang baru bhwa orientasi do give fun but in the same time educate them in the right ways. So xdela bile sebut orientasi je,kepale trus pop-up nak ponteng (mcm ak dlula! haha),biar diorang sndri yang rase excited untuk follow program yg dah tetapkan tue..baru la syok! Kami facilitator nie pun xdela rase mcm terpakse je nak buat tugas-tugas tue bile kami tengok diorang dapat enjoy dengan provided activities.

Special credits go to Mak Labu, Pekan n Melor (copycat punye...), aku (hahaha), Rashidah), mak kundur, dephnie, mei yi,mariama,nithiya,nina,faz n ida dan sume yg terlibat ngan registration biro la...haha..kerane kite maintain cool + bleh gelak ketawe sepanjang mase...hahaha.

Overall, everything went smoothly according to plans. Got to know new people and also some perception of mine (in positive n negative) towards people also change. N kite sendiri pun x tau org judge,look and value kite nie mcm mane....ape-ape pun, it's a huge experience to gain in this process of life....hahaha

p/s: aku x rase la plak newbie kali nie ramai yang control macho n ayu! kalu ade mungkin sorang due yang x dpt diselamatkan lagi...hahah change your perception alsola my fren..hehe.

(photo credits: mppunisel blog)

Birthday Girl....=)

2009-08-14T03:00:00.008+08:00

~~~14th August 2009~~~
Happy 21st Birthday to my dearest+best (erk?!) friend!!!!!

(ak tau ko suke wak iklan colgate bile amik gmbo...hahaha)

moga panjang lagi umo n murah rezeki..
ko la sahabat mengumpat+mengutuk+ketawe+berduka+berlari+berjalan+makan+main badminton+shopping+adventure aku...haha
idup ini perlu drama...br meriah..so teruskan drama idop anda..haha
hadiah? nanti2 la ek? sume list yg ko nak tue mahal2...haha tgu ak jd kaye dlu! haha
last, haha bile nak blanje ak? hahaha

p/s: bukan senang untuk rapat, bukan senang untuk serasi dan bukan senang untuk bersame....=) tp perbezaan kite lah yg menghubungkan semua itu...(ayat aku ke nieh?? haha)

stalking....

2009-08-10T18:08:00.006+08:00

if we're looking at someone..do they will notice the

'stalker' views from us? hehe...

AND

are you hoping to be 'caught' when you're staring or not?

she is actually a "he" and he dosen't has a twitter...i guess..haha

*i'm wondering...cause i use to stare @ someone for these few days..wakaka*

it's holiday!!!!!

2009-07-30T02:50:00.009+08:00

fuh.....!!! nak bleh taip entri nie...bkn main tertangguh lagi..hehe..amacam?..excited tak dengar holiday?? besh kan?? smpai ari ke-8 duk rumah br wak posting pasal cuti 'skolah' nie...hehehe..ni kire 'rap-up' utk past and present ape terjadi before and while holidayla...hahaha

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Well, lepas exam ari rabu lepas, ak terus je cabut balik..takde tunggu-tunggu dah...hehehe..final exam ari tue rase sgt flunk! smpai ke titisan keringat terakhir ak fail untuk meng'adaptation'kan materials untuk teaching..means gagal la...Part C tue involve 40 marks and aku x tau la ape yg aku ubah untuk text tue untuk suits primary students...hohohoh...mase dpt soklan tue pun, ak puas tgk kire kanan...sume duk kusyuk buat. Bile kuar je dewan, ak dengar budak-budak nie tnye ade sketch ape-ape tak for AVA..ahaha ak ckp ak lukis org gemok and org kurus je...sebab text tue ckp pasal healthy lifestyle...haha belum kire macam mane plak kitaorg kene reka satu activity berdasarkan adaption text tue...oh tidak! (betape merapunye ak jwb!!!). Overall-nye, mmg tak lepas le adaptation tue......(waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......pengsan!)Lepas exam je, kami (aku,meilin n senah) terus tumpang ifa g ktm...ehehe nak wak gane..tiket bas mlm tul kul 10.30...senah plak mase tue belum beli tiket balik kedah..kire die lagi gamble la sbb kemungkinan tiket takde...(tp nasib die baik..dpt beli tiket seat blkg skali..haha) Lepas je lepak kt sogo, masing-masing amik haluan sendiri...(senah ke pudu, ak ngan meilin ke putra). Sampai je putra, time mase tue kire semput ala-ala cukup mkn je nak tgu naik bas...ak pun trus excuse nak g tandas, kuar je tandas, meilin ngan gye cuak die bgtau yang bas dh sampai..ak pun dengan 2 beg barang n 2 beg laptop terus g cari bas. Meilin denganlagak yakinnye tunjuk yg bas kitaorg patut naik dah jln...ak ngan cuak nye lempar sume beg terus lari kejar bas tue.....pergh..ak rase sume org memang tgk aku la..(prasan jap..hahaha) tapi..bile dpt kejar bas tue..ak tgk trip id die M2..n bas kitaorg trip id M3!!!!!!! and bas M3 tue ade sebelah sane.!!!!..dengan muke merah malu n merah 'lengoh' kutip balik beg yang ak campak! (gaye aku mmg mcm minah indon la ngan beg byk gile). Aku mmg igt smpai bile2 la kejadian tue...huhuh (meilin..mu mmg la!! sabo je ak! hahaha)

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Untuk holiday yang x seberape lame nie, aku ade vision n mission tersendiri iaitu nak blajo maen guitar ngan keyboard..(dasar tamak punye org..nak kaut 2 skaligus...). Tapi guitar tue ak terpakse say 'hold-on' dlu..sebab kne beli guitar dlu..keyboard ni plak, abah pinjam dr sekolah die. Sampai je pagi tue, terus stay-up smpai pagi duk study notes n chords die...pergh! rase mcm buat minor music je..hahaha....so..ke'mania'an terhadap keyboard tue berlangsung selama 4 hari...dan hari ini..ak tgk keyboard tue tersadai tanpe sape peduli! hahahahaha i admit..it is hard to play in a limited of time..sius! x tipu! adeh! angan-angan ak nak terror main satu lagu bella lullaby nie je(my blog background music)..haha tp sikit punye susah nak maintain co-ordination both hands..stakt nak knal chords location and physical stuff bout keyboard bleh la + main lagu senang2....kalu lain? ya ampun!=( Kalu keyboard yg bleh blaja sendri tuh pun hard...guitar lagi la kan? Ok!! i need a 'sifu' here to teach me! haha anyone interested please 'pm' me...hahaaha

And..this holiday is also the shortest sem break i've in due to the gatal n gedik pegi apply nak jadi faci untuk junior...wohooo...faci tue...cesss..! any hidden agenda behind this? (of cuz la ade..mane bleh bgi tau dowh!hahaha) Got e-mail for HEP to report back in UNiSEL (terchenta....) on 2nd August..means this sunday! oh! i want my cuti back!!...huhuhuhu...on the 3rd and 4th, we will be heading to the faci camp which is i-don't-know-where? it's a suprise!! (kononnyela...) the juniors will be registered on 8th...and on 14th the seniors will return...i dun know what to expect cause i'm a newbie here! haha...just follow yg dh expert je la...and fully devoted myself to the job...hahaha pasrah gile bunyi nye...ekekeke

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while cuti, nothing much happen,most of my time at home,(watching,eating,facebook-ing,bibik-ing,baby sitting,sleeping,blogging,youtube-ing.) i didn't hang out with my frens ( i also dun know y) haha Some of them got the emergency holiday due to the h1n1 cases. In my place itself, i think all education institution is closed for a week..(politeknik,boarding schools,uitm) sumela....and our town is really like the koboi town 'again'..haha people are rarely going out..senyap sunyi je bandar tue sbb xde org kuar rumah takut h1n1 punye pasal...hehehe is this the bad signs? i also don't know....hope things will get better...(amin!)

i think dat all the things i want to write+say+vomit=then u get this entri to read..hahhaha (kalu ad org bace)....

p/s: oh....kegilaan ak terhadap Oppa Sunbae and the band x dpt di bendung lagi! kehkehkehe ^_^ epi holiday!!!!

p/s: entri nieh plg byk gambo skali ak rase....hahaha

[ i am what i am] past..present.. & future...=)

random...

what does new year means?

fix me...

Le Gra, Westlife.

Life of a fangirl...

C.o.n.t.a.g.i.o.n

sweepin' the blocks

who is he?

Hyun Joong: humans can't defeat the machines. Hwang Bo: but humans CREATED the machines. Hyun Joong: humans created them so that they'd do what humans can't. Hwang Bo: but still, machines were created by humans. Hyun Joong: but humans used to be monkeys.

what do you wanna be?

They're coming....!!

changing...

Lie To Me...

hello??

procrastinating...

Pro-cras-ti-nation

life is like a drama, but it's not perfect as it is.

webby speedy web....

alien???

about being lucky..

He was HERE!!!!!

this is the story of a girl....

this is LOVE...

i realise...

rant!

crash and burn!

life..

i win???

bla..bla..bla...

pick me...choose me...vote 4 me....

clap..clap...clap...

when a friend meets a friend...

people perception...

who am i?

August surprises...!!! Anyone?

random....!

permanently home...

how stupid is that???

so many things..yet so little time...

[no entry]

leader said.....

things getting worst...

school holiday!!!!

tell me goodbye...

1st present as a teacher..

You know i love you.....

nose bleed!!!!!

failed!

Annyeong...!! 안녕하세요

weekend's coming!!!

as a matter of food...

i hearby.....

honked to: WMX 6502

SUJU Super Show: I was there.......!!!

moving to a new shelter......

so much to say.....

Lost..!!!!

TESL Masquerade Night 2010.....

kerana sepasang dress....

i want updates....!!

i feel annoyed!

short trip: Ipoh...

the work-husband and work-wife...

2010....

dream trip: BANGKOK!

i'll be back....=)

rewarding myself?

women are not that hard to hold....

i'm lazy!!!!!!

thank you.....

between a holiday and homework(s)

looking forward for this....

Pergi tak kembali....Al-fatihah...

quick update! hehe...

hikayat Raya 2009...

Ragam kami di bulan Ramadhan...=)

i hate my English!

Hankering for Oppa Sunbae(s)

tips kejut sahur....=)

Hyun Joong: humans can't defeat the machines.
Hwang Bo: but humans CREATED the machines.
Hyun Joong: humans created them so that they'd do what humans can't.
Hwang Bo: but still, machines were created by humans.
Hyun Joong: but humans used to be monkeys.