Tuesday, February 1, 2011

life is like a drama, but it's not perfect as it is.

hoolaaaa!
it's been a while...and i think i keep saying those words in every posting of mine lately. Not that i'm not aware of it, it's just...YES..it's really been a while..i miss writing here, but the time constrains really bugs me now days.. i don't know what actually I'm doing that makes myself so busy and stuff. and like before, works will never be finished.

Sometimes in order to escape the reality, you just need to create your own fantasy where you;ll be really comfortable in it. Ignore anybody who don't understand yours, as long as you feel fine and happy in what your doing. the pass weeks, tho I'm busy, but i've been spoil with dramas. two perfect dramas that i think or most of us would have a thought to be one of these characters in it. how the heroin got to meet the gorgeous man, even though how ugly or clumsy or even boyish she is, there's still a handsome tall man will chase after her and will do anything to get her attention. That's the typical drama that you'll be seeing everyday. Taking about real life, we do have our own drama in our own script. it's just that you don't know how the story of your life will lead you further. seeing the character cried, you also cried along with them, as if you really understand how it feels to be what they feel that time. When it comes to the hero, everything seems perfect. He's the man of your dream. The great imagination and the perfect human being in the world. But, the sadden thing is the role is just a creation made by the writer.

Life hasn't been this perfect, there must be some way that you will also get hurt the most. A time when you feel really down that you don't have any energy to face the day, or even a time when you really want to deeply fall in love like any other people but you just can't. Just because you're in a reality world when anything can't be predicted. Sometimes you always feels to be in other people shoes like adoring how perfect their life could be, but at the end you just have to be grateful for who you are because your living on this earth must have a great reason that sooner or later you will know the meaning underlying the life that's been given by Him. Poorly, we are just who we are. and they are also who they are. This is the life...this is the reality that we must face everyday...^^




p/s : too many perfect storylines struck in the head sometimes can make me drown by it...T_T

Friday, January 7, 2011

webby speedy web....


the last ranted about me finding a job was on 5th October 2010...and today is actually 7th January 2011 and im employed! hahaha...so my posting thru this blog would be only ONE post for each month back?? so pathetic....! How to cure this pathetic-ness? [ade ke words tu? haha]

Sorting back of the past is good! and you actually can laugh about it. how funny, mad, crazy and upside down ur life is...and i'm thankful THIS not-so-'alive' blog did stored something that i think i wouldn't even remember if i don't wrote it in here.

Yesterday, i had lots of things in mind. Just because i read the newspaper..haha how busy life can be even u can't read at all...huhuh.. and at this moment i realise working's suck!! WHEN...you got tons of work to do and even has to come on weekends, but the pay is SMALL! When i said LOTS...it's really is!! T_T hardly catching up with one thing, you already got another things to settle... =( Just leave the work thingy here...cause the load would never finish.

Back to lots of thought in mind...., yes...i still have it ..unorganised and need to write down on paper first as always..hahaha looks soo serious isn't it? but, it;s actually works. i can't write about something without drafting it first on papers, lets just said the paper and i have the connection...not forgetting the pen. haha then how you're going to be a journalist or editor?? <------itu belakang kire!

*trying to clean the webby speedy web* haha

So guy, this girl has nothing to put up here. this is also a random one since i posted the last photo here, and the i realise about the lack of updating. Though, i'm sure there's not many people will stop by here...but still it's something good to share..ahaha...ape-apela...will moved this lazzy butt to work more and be more hardworking!! erk??!




p/s i'm turning to one year older.....O_Y



alien???


this pic is toooooooooo big in resolution that you could only see half? of it...haha...



p/s was trying on how to hotlink actually..hahaha...

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

about being lucky..

It took me a while to write about this as i dont know where to start but wants to share about it. It's something that's rarely happen but do occur in one's life and i just got mine last week. I've never been so lucky in my life, be it my exam results, competitions or even lucky draw, but about what happen last week do make me realise that if fate and miracle takes control or get involve in anything, it'll be awesome. trying to be part of a lucky draw contest wasn't even my attention although the prize is priceless. i already know the consequences about being in the luck and lucky event, where whether you are actually lucky enough or the lady lucky is on your shoulders, then you can win the prizes. Even sometime happen to my friends who actually don't paid much hope on anything and suddenly they won the prize..so envy. So my journey with this lucky charm just started when i bought the TheFaceShop products, just because my MAN [you know who] actually endorse this label for a new contract. Before this, i even haven't laid my eyes on the TheFaceShop and wondered why there's still Bae Yong Joon as their spokesperson. But, it's all changed when Kim Hyun Joong takes place and the rest is history.~~

So, to cut thing short, KHJ is going to do an Asia Tour for the TheFaceShop outlets started in Korea of course, then Singapore and surprisingly Malaysia was included. It's like half of the dream come true already. After the announcement have been made, the info started to fill in and at that time the Malaysia event was actually not confirmed yet but not Singapore. I was thinking of taking the big steps in my life by flying to the other shore until i got a news...i REPEAT it's a NEWS not rumor said that he's confirm coming to Malaysia. Ommoooo! don't know how to describe as i'm myself also wondering is it really true or not? Is this the time where i covered back my frustration over the last year chasing them (SS501) when they landed here for a quick fanmeeting? Tried to gather all my sense which i would think impossible to do as it's all tremble and flying aways as in my mind i would only think "i'm going to KL no matter what!". =)

For the Malaysia event, you actually need to buy the products worth than rm50, so that you'll get the chance to be entitled in the lucky draw. Just a confirmation in participating and not confirming that you'll going to see him face to face and got the autograph. That's bad! really bad! as i'm never ever been any luckier in anything. At that time, i guess the Singapore event is much more secured to attend since they actually selling the fanmeeting tickets by buying the products, so it's actually a confirmation that you're actually will be able to get in no matter what! As long as you're in the earliest people who manage to grab the chance, then the place is yours. After deep of consideration, i'm staying with Malaysia. Not knowing what will happen, i just planned up everything, applying for leave, air ticket also, and sort of one or two stuff. But the most painful part was in getting a good camera to borrow as everybody had their own excuses that weekend. Not going to let the chance slipped by not having a good camera to shot him haha...called me crazy but it's the man that you're actually always looking through the posted photos in the webs and videos in the YouTube. And now, he will be breathing the same air as you, who would have want to miss that chance?

The day of TheFaceShop started to call people for the notification of their winning, i really don't put high hopes as i only spent rm50 compare to others who spent nearly thousand and just solely hope everything will based on the luck. So no preparation on winning other than a stalking plan trip to KL. That's is..until late in the evening a received a call, an unknown number to be precise. And the caller said, "Hi there, i'm from TheFaceShop....Congratulation! You actually......" and i can't heard any words on what he's saying anymore! and i won the Lucky draw!! like that freaking lucky draw! O.M.G! i just started to laugh as i GOT the chance to meet KIM HYUN JOONG!! and the stalking plan turn to be the triple stalking with that chance! hahaha


being able to feel the lucky charm is hard to describe. I mean it's all mix-up and also pretty mess-up too. You feel like you've been blessed or something and somehow ever wonder why you're so lucky in this kind of thing which makes me worried and scared as is it going to be the joy that "HE" wants me to feel before giving in the hard times in future. Not over think about it, i just feel what it should be felt that time. It was a wonderful awesome journey that you'll never forget. You also just gotta learn something new from everything that happen.

Chasing over idol or even fantasied about them may be lame or wasting our time which sometimes people around me won't get it. But beyond the craziness and the chasing there's actually something great happen underlaying the actions and only the people who involved will able to feel it. I ain't complaining for what happen as i valued it as pro and the cons in life. Sometimes being a mature person not only been measured through your action but somehow through the experiences and the journey of becoming one.



p/s: YES! i'm not regret of what i'm doing... =)
: and the series of the stalking will continue...ngeh...ngeh....ngeh.....


Wednesday, December 8, 2010

He was HERE!!!!!



and I am LUCKY!!!......finally this man hit this shore and bring his million watt smile together!!!!



p/s : more will come....ngeh..ngeh..ngeh.... <-----bajet mystery! O_O


Monday, November 15, 2010

this is the story of a girl....

  • who cried a river and drowned the whole world....[ by Nine Days]
  • her life will entirely change by tomorrow and she missed the yesterday of her already...T_T
  • who believes that people who is overly sensitive and think she's good or great should just be drown in the sea.... [she's evil! but she's sick n tired for being misunderstood all the time]
  • who have many thoughts and stories to share but still dont have the 'feel' to write about it up until this rant.
  • who still in dilemma thinking about how she's going to make an extreme + costly moves for the first time in her life.. [would she be allowed to do soo?? ]
  • who thinks some people who become close to other people just because of the status/power/influence that they had, and the some people should be buried alive! [shame on u! kipas bontot org je tau!]
  • who suddenly obsesses with this guy out of nowhere, where she should just be loyal to one ONLY! [ekekekeke....bajet!]
  • who thinks she should stop now, because she dont know what will wait for her tomorrow, monster? otomen? or even another surat saman ekor..
  • so, she better go to sleep like a good boy above ^_^......



p/s: a random thoughts of 'she/her'.......O_O , as idk if this is true or imaginary? haha

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

this is LOVE...

guess what i accidently found!!
my background music with vocal...!
hehehe..
was browsing the YT as always, then a friend tweet about something else but this music as the background and with VOCAL!
all this while i though it's only the music along plays by Yiruma...hehe
so let's listen together...


[this one is him himself sings it on Yoo Hee Yeol's Sketchbook show]



[this one is him playing the piano while the vocal sing by Ravin]



p/s : i wish i can play like him...but that's only my hangat-hangat taik ayam... O_O