Lie To Me...

I'm sure i should not be posting this up and it's like so suddenly out of nowhere the urge to write come and this time i self-surrender to what i feel. I'm actually in the middle of translating the Episode 4 of 'OneDay' as it needs to be submitted by (tonight?tomorrow?) haha i dont know already, as long as my second boss will see this trans in her email by tomorrow morning and it means no sleep for me as it's just 2/5 of it done?. Yes, i love and miss the feeling of writing without having any restriction to what you're going to put on your post.

In keeping up with my sleepy head, i'm just doing the translating while watching new drama, crazy ait? it's really makes my work slower on the left side while the eyes are glued to the right side even more, but it couldn't be helped. It's just a sadpy sloopy love story as always, where he dumped her then comes new girl and then she's coming back and he wants her back and leave the other 'she' clueless on what actually happen. (cliche already) It just reminds me back on Kim Samsoon, as in here we have Yoon Eun Hye, way better compare to Samsoon but the storyline is quite the same. Yes, i did watched it because of YEH all the way but half way of the episodes, i googled for Kang Ji Hwan. Like i said, it's juat a simple, cliche ,predictable love story but i just love it. It's still getting in sense on how typical waman fall

for a man but the man still in the memories of the other woman. Sigh~~~ life's hard. My fave quote would be, it's the matter on living and starting new life or living with your hunted past memories that will hurt you soon as if the wound would heal.

[leftrightleftright @_@]

Getting until this paragraph, i dont know what i'm rambling about, it's just i need to say what you have read. If you dont understand, then don't be. It's not for information or something. If you do understand, thank you for reading. Maybe i do miss this blog really much. Though it's nothing, but at least it has something that others done, it's a my life journey as well. So better to keep it live and continue writing or just let it dead and rarely open it, it's all my choice. And it's clearly that making a choice is not an easy things do and it's getting complicated when it's involve many parties. Till then, that's all i wanna say.

p/s: i think my hormone ain't stable yet. =.='

: do i sort of missed the [click, cling and pang?] <-------help me 'Azril', what's urs?

hello??

coming back soon....? (>.<')

procrastinating...

Hola....it's me!!! (sweeping all the dusk here...)
i hate of writing, 'it's been a while' and IT IS!! i'm always a lazy bum, and when i can't make my thought to get out from my brain thru my skull and on this blog, then i'm a failure. See how the topic of today's posting? yes! i'm procrastinating over other important things that should be done and finished maybe last week? Now i understand the underlying meaning of this word when my friend, Tasha keep using it before.

Pro-cras-ti-nation

by means: is putting off or avoiding doing something that must be done.

And right now, i'm suppose to revise the notes for the subjects that i'm going to teach next semester but i havent done it yet and i'm avoiding it by updating this blog and going to give a full rant about it. I bought home all the books that related to the subjects, go through the syllabus, marked which page i should going thru again and still i'm stuck in shortening the info into a neat notes. Can i just read it and not preparing any notes for the students? hahaha...my new way of teaching is i love torturing them in writing it out instead of me giving the photocopied ones.

Speaking of next semester, it's a short sem but i've got 4 subjects to cover it all and i can feel how a dead meat i am in order to prepare all the subjects. C'mon guys, if possible they want to squeeze all the English subjects in this semester and my total of teaching load would be 26 hours/week. it's PACKED! no more internet, no more running man and no more twitter i believe. but..but..but... it's all a timetable and on a paper, who know what might actually happen during the course...ekekeke...not going to spoil it here.

I've been thinking lately how i'm still here, in the place where i used to think that i will leave it in a short period of time but now, i'm still continuing till the 2nd semester. Even my friend already quit and already gone back to her hometown for better a future. I never brag about it before, as i don't what should i say. Though, everybody will advice me to stay there and gain something from the experince and i believe i am doing it now. i don't know how serious, or hopeless or drained this upcoming 6 weeks will be, but we shall wait and see the outcomes.

Procrastination, running circles in my head.
While you sit there contemplating,
You wound up left for dead (left for dead)
Life is what happens while you're busy making your excuses.
Another day, another casualty.
And that won't happen to me.....

p/s: how i love being able to write in here.....T_T

life is like a drama, but it's not perfect as it is.

hoolaaaa!
it's been a while...and i think i keep saying those words in every posting of mine lately. Not that i'm not aware of it, it's just...YES..it's really been a while..i miss writing here, but the time constrains really bugs me now days.. i don't know what actually I'm doing that makes myself so busy and stuff. and like before, works will never be finished.

Sometimes in order to escape the reality, you just need to create your own fantasy where you;ll be really comfortable in it. Ignore anybody who don't understand yours, as long as you feel fine and happy in what your doing. the pass weeks, tho I'm busy, but i've been spoil with dramas. two perfect dramas that i think or most of us would have a thought to be one of these characters in it. how the heroin got to meet the gorgeous man, even though how ugly or clumsy or even boyish she is, there's still a handsome tall man will chase after her and will do anything to get her attention. That's the typical drama that you'll be seeing everyday. Taking about real life, we do have our own drama in our own script. it's just that you don't know how the story of your life will lead you further. seeing the character cried, you also cried along with them, as if you really understand how it feels to be what they feel that time. When it comes to the hero, everything seems perfect. He's the man of your dream. The great imagination and the perfect human being in the world. But, the sadden thing is the role is just a creation made by the writer.

Life hasn't been this perfect, there must be some way that you will also get hurt the most. A time when you feel really down that you don't have any energy to face the day, or even a time when you really want to deeply fall in love like any other people but you just can't. Just because you're in a reality world when anything can't be predicted. Sometimes you always feels to be in other people shoes like adoring how perfect their life could be, but at the end you just have to be grateful for who you are because your living on this earth must have a great reason that sooner or later you will know the meaning underlying the life that's been given by Him. Poorly, we are just who we are. and they are also who they are. This is the life...this is the reality that we must face everyday...^^




p/s : too many perfect storylines struck in the head sometimes can make me drown by it...T_T

webby speedy web....

the last ranted about me finding a job was on 5th October 2010...and today is actually 7th January 2011 and im employed! hahaha...so my posting thru this blog would be only ONE post for each month back?? so pathetic....! How to cure this pathetic-ness? [ade ke words tu? haha]

Sorting back of the past is good! and you actually can laugh about it. how funny, mad, crazy and upside down ur life is...and i'm thankful THIS not-so-'alive' blog did stored something that i think i wouldn't even remember if i don't wrote it in here.

Yesterday, i had lots of things in mind. Just because i read the newspaper..haha how busy life can be even u can't read at all...huhuh.. and at this moment i realise working's suck!! WHEN...you got tons of work to do and even has to come on weekends, but the pay is SMALL! When i said LOTS...it's really is!! T_T hardly catching up with one thing, you already got another things to settle... =( Just leave the work thingy here...cause the load would never finish.

Back to lots of thought in mind...., yes...i still have it ..unorganised and need to write down on paper first as always..hahaha looks soo serious isn't it? but, it;s actually works. i can't write about something without drafting it first on papers, lets just said the paper and i have the connection...not forgetting the pen. haha then how you're going to be a journalist or editor?? <------itu belakang kire!

*trying to clean the webby speedy web* haha

So guy, this girl has nothing to put up here. this is also a random one since i posted the last photo here, and the i realise about the lack of updating. Though, i'm sure there's not many people will stop by here...but still it's something good to share..ahaha...ape-apela...will moved this lazzy butt to work more and be more hardworking!! erk??!

p/s i'm turning to one year older.....O_Y

alien???

this pic is toooooooooo big in resolution that you could only see half? of it...haha...

p/s was trying on how to hotlink actually..hahaha...

about being lucky..

It took me a while to write about this as i dont know where to start but wants to share about it. It's something that's rarely happen but do occur in one's life and i just got mine last week. I've never been so lucky in my life, be it my exam results, competitions or even lucky draw, but about what happen last week do make me realise that if fate and miracle takes control or get involve in anything, it'll be awesome. trying to be part of a lucky draw contest wasn't even my attention although the prize is priceless. i already know the consequences about being in the luck and lucky event, where whether you are actually lucky enough or the lady lucky is on your shoulders, then you can win the prizes. Even sometime happen to my friends who actually don't paid much hope on anything and suddenly they won the prize..so envy. So my journey with this lucky charm just started when i bought the TheFaceShop products, just because my MAN [you know who] actually endorse this label for a new contract. Before this, i even haven't laid my eyes on the TheFaceShop and wondered why there's still Bae Yong Joon as their spokesperson. But, it's all changed when Kim Hyun Joong takes place and the rest is history.~~

So, to cut thing short, KHJ is going to do an Asia Tour for the TheFaceShop outlets started in Korea of course, then Singapore and surprisingly Malaysia was included. It's like half of the dream come true already. After the announcement have been made, the info started to fill in and at that time the Malaysia event was actually not confirmed yet but not Singapore. I was thinking of taking the big steps in my life by flying to the other shore until i got a news...i REPEAT it's a NEWS not rumor said that he's confirm coming to Malaysia. Ommoooo! don't know how to describe as i'm myself also wondering is it really true or not? Is this the time where i covered back my frustration over the last year chasing them (SS501) when they landed here for a quick fanmeeting? Tried to gather all my sense which i would think impossible to do as it's all tremble and flying aways as in my mind i would only think "i'm going to KL no matter what!". =)

For the Malaysia event, you actually need to buy the products worth than rm50, so that you'll get the chance to be entitled in the lucky draw. Just a confirmation in participating and not confirming that you'll going to see him face to face and got the autograph. That's bad! really bad! as i'm never ever been any luckier in anything. At that time, i guess the Singapore event is much more secured to attend since they actually selling the fanmeeting tickets by buying the products, so it's actually a confirmation that you're actually will be able to get in no matter what! As long as you're in the earliest people who manage to grab the chance, then the place is yours. After deep of consideration, i'm staying with Malaysia. Not knowing what will happen, i just planned up everything, applying for leave, air ticket also, and sort of one or two stuff. But the most painful part was in getting a good camera to borrow as everybody had their own excuses that weekend. Not going to let the chance slipped by not having a good camera to shot him haha...called me crazy but it's the man that you're actually always looking through the posted photos in the webs and videos in the YouTube. And now, he will be breathing the same air as you, who would have want to miss that chance?

The day of TheFaceShop started to call people for the notification of their winning, i really don't put high hopes as i only spent rm50 compare to others who spent nearly thousand and just solely hope everything will based on the luck. So no preparation on winning other than a stalking plan trip to KL. That's is..until late in the evening a received a call, an unknown number to be precise. And the caller said, "Hi there, i'm from TheFaceShop....Congratulation! You actually......" and i can't heard any words on what he's saying anymore! and i won the Lucky draw!! like that freaking lucky draw! O.M.G! i just started to laugh as i GOT the chance to meet KIM HYUN JOONG!! and the stalking plan turn to be the triple stalking with that chance! hahaha

being able to feel the lucky charm is hard to describe. I mean it's all mix-up and also pretty mess-up too. You feel like you've been blessed or something and somehow ever wonder why you're so lucky in this kind of thing which makes me worried and scared as is it going to be the joy that "HE" wants me to feel before giving in the hard times in future. Not over think about it, i just feel what it should be felt that time. It was a wonderful awesome journey that you'll never forget. You also just gotta learn something new from everything that happen.

Chasing over idol or even fantasied about them may be lame or wasting our time which sometimes people around me won't get it. But beyond the craziness and the chasing there's actually something great happen underlaying the actions and only the people who involved will able to feel it. I ain't complaining for what happen as i valued it as pro and the cons in life. Sometimes being a mature person not only been measured through your action but somehow through the experiences and the journey of becoming one.

p/s: YES! i'm not regret of what i'm doing... =)

: and the series of the stalking will continue...ngeh...ngeh....ngeh.....