denial...

ari nie meilin wak statement yang aku hidup dalam denial...am i? am i? i guess i am!! huh! dlu2 ak dgn yakin nye ckp yg ak dh over on something..tp it's still not end! and i thought a confession is the best..but still nothing happen! ape bleh buat...dh sah2 nak forget something..of coz la kite kene deny yang kite x suke mende 2 so xde la mende tuh mari je lepak around us rite? do keeping a distance is a good thing to do? tp..still it's eatin' and killin' me inside! rase macam nok suke kuat2 je! 2 je yg termampu...huhuh susah jugak idup dlm penafian nie...(dh kuar word dr kamus dewan)...huhu letih,benci,exhausted,sume nd negative la...ak rase denial nie same gak ngan hipokrit kut...kite hipokrit on something 2 protect something, kite hidup dlm denial just to make sure we can show to people that we're strong enough...but deep down inside..hanye kite je yg tau whether kite nih dah over on something or not...why it's so hard? i'm still dealing with my past..i'm living with the past and the present..and if i continue with both of it together...i will still fighting hard for my future....very hard!